Training Camp was awesome! I just had to get that out of the way. God moved in such a big way, and I want to share with you all one thing I overcame at training camp. Some of you may know that in 1999, I was diagnosed with Attention Deficient Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) and have been on medication ever since I was 5 years old.
A few weeks ago I was informed that I could not legally take a year’s supply of my medication with me. That meant that if I wanted to go where God was calling me, then I would have to stop taking my medication. To be honest with you all, that made me very nervous. Fear of not being able to function did not make me anxious. What made me uneasy was the fear of not being accepted by my squad for who I truly was.
After talking with my mobilizer, physician, and of course my mom, I decided to complete training camp without my medication to get a sense of how I would interact with the mission environment. Even though I was nervous, I decided, to be honest with God and told Him how I felt.
The first day of training camp, one of my squad leaders told us to begin to declare traits that we wanted our squad to exhibit on the field. Knowing how irritating and annoying I can be without my medication, I began to ask God that my squad would be a squad of patience, and a squad of understanding. During quiet time every morning, I would ask God to help me and to give my team patience.
Towards the beginning of camp, I told a few squad mates about my condition. Throughout the duration of training camp, God revealed how much he loves me for who I am. One night, one of my squad leaders told me that God wanted me to know that He, God, loves my presence, even if at times people may get irritated with me. In the words of my squad leader, “God digs you!”
Another night, during worship, someone told me that God wanted me to know that I was enough. I didn’t realize how much I really needed to hear those words from my Heavenly Father. You see throughout my life, I have always felt somewhat inferior because of my condition. I always thought that I needed to go above and beyond to make up for having ADHD. As the Lord was revealing how much He “digs” me, the worship band was singing the words, “I was made by You. I was made for You.” At that moment, I realized that God made me this way for a reason and that there is a purpose for everything. I realized that my faith should not be in my medication, but in God’s grace.
2 Corinithians 12: 9 states “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
If you are reading this and have doubts due to circumstances out of your control, know that God made you and that He digs you!
P.S. I think my squad and team digs me too!
I am Enough
P.P.S. My next deadline, July 22nd, is quickly approaching. I need $10,000 in my account in order to launch with my team, Cubs of Judah. If you can donate please do so. If you can only offer prayer and kind words, PLEASE do so. Your support means a lot to me!
