There is something VERY liberating about starting oneself on a journey. The journey to figuring out oneself and figuring out who GOD really is.. It’s a place where I’ve found myself actually.. just recently.
I was saved and baptized 15 months ago with my dad by my side. I’ll never forget my reaction when the preacher told me that he wanted me to give my testimony. Everything from the top of my head to the bottom of my toes lost feeling.
PUBLIC SPEAKING is my worst enemy.. I completely went into panic mode as I climbed the stairs to my little room to change. My sister helped me to give me moral support, as she always does. I stood at the top of the steps leading to the water and I could see my dad standing directly across from me at the top of a similar set of stairs. He was smiling that same cute little smile basically stating, “Baby, you’re going to be just fine”.
As he did when I looked up at him after I made a goal at the buzzer to take my high school basketball team to overtime which eventually lead to a state championship, as he did when I cried my eyes out at my senior night when I handed him a rose as they played “My little girl” by Tim Mcgraw, as he did when I graduated high school and walked across that scary stage to begin the next set of life experiences, as he did when i graduated college and passed my PTA boards, as he did when I packed up my car and pulled out of the driveway to start my new job and adventures in Texas, California, and Pennsylvania.
My dad has ALWAYS stood by my side and ALWAYS been my number one supporter. So in that moment EVERYTHING disappeared, the pain, the nervousness, the anxiousness.. Everything left and for a moment all i felt was peace. As the preacher rounded up his sermon, we both climbed down into the water and dad (being the prepared man he is) read his testimony that he had written out. It was SO beautiful. He always had a knack for writing..
As i started my testimony, I just began to speak. God literally was SPEAKING through me. I told everyone about my bad times, hard times, worse times, best times, even better times and most importantly the place GOD has brought me out of all of that. There was no accident me being there that day and telling my story. As I finished up my testimony, I looked around and everyone was CRYING. Later my step mom told me, there wasn’t a dry eye in the house. I was crying, my sister was sitting at the top of those steps where I had just been standing, crying. My dad was crying. My step mom was crying. My boyfriend at the time was crying. It was an emotional moment for all of US. I took a few steps and as the preacher blessed me, I was dipped into the water. I was REBORN.
So like I said, there’s something very liberating about a new journey and as I started my new journey that day, with my amazing dad and amazing father in heaven.. both looking to me saying, “Baby, you’re going to be just fine”. This constant support and love has brought me here. In these past 15 months, I have changed but it hasn’t been until maybe the past couple weeks that I can truly see the change in myself.
I have learned to completely rely on GOD with all of my heart and when I talk to him, I know he’s listening and I believe that he is there.
This RACE is no chance happening. Every person in my group has been molded into someone that has been perfectly designed for this adventure.
I’m ready to be CHANGED.
I’m ready to be BROKEN.
I’m ready to be completely thrown out of my COMFORT ZONE.
I’m ready to change the world, one beautiful soul at a time and in the process become a better me. The woman GOD had in mind.
I was accepted and brought onto this WORLD RACE back in March but it hasn’t actually hit me until these past couples weeks.
I haven’t been focused on asking anyone for help, fundraising, or any of the things that its going to take to get me where i’m going and yet, i’m still here.
423 dollars away from my first GOAL.
and i have like three weeks to get myself to that goal.. So please send me PRAYERS.. I know God’s listening. If I can just be brought to this first goal I know that a flame will ignite in me, and I’ll start a fire 🙂 Anything FINANCIALLY helps too, whether it just be a dollar or two. 🙂
Hope everyone had an amazing labor day! Love you all <3
