If you know me, you know I like to keep busy. I love serving, hanging out with friends and family, and more. I read a great blog post this week about being busy (check it out: The Real Reason We Are So Busy) and I admit this is me.
Currently there are three main things that are keeping me busy: preparing for a marathon, preparing for the World Race and my job. Anyone who has been around me recently knows that I am feeling a bit overwhelmed and stressed by I all I am trying to do. Many people have mentioned I need to cut back and while that is true, I am recognizing there is another problem here, trust.
I consider myself a trusting person, but I am realizing that I may not trust God as much I would like to think. It is one thing to trust God will provide when you have a steady job with good income and no obligations. It is another thing to trust God will provide when you have 4 months to raise $16,000. It is one thing to trust God for strength when you are running five miles and feeling good, it is another thing to trust God for strength when you are on a 20 mile run and your IT band is hurting. It is one thing to trust God to help you through the day when you things are going well and you know how to address the problems in front of you, it is another thing to trust God to help you through the day when you are tired and have little idea on how to resolve the issues in front of you.
I am realizing that my stress has been a direct result of my lack of trust in God to provide. Seems basic I know, but it is sometimes harder to recognize in the midst of things. My prayer right now is that God would help me to trust Him more.
A friend made the comment today as I expressed my woes of the day, that instead of dreading the day I could look at the day expectantly for what God was going to do. I honestly resent the comment at the time, but as I have considered it I am realizing how my expectations are tided to what I am trusting in. When I am trusting in God to provide than I can expectantly wait to see what He will do. My goal the rest of this week is to begin each day expectantly trusting God to show up and to end each day recognizing the ways in which He did.
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