The grace that we choose to live out through action is our reality. No matter our past God knows who we truly are and what we truly think. I have to mention that God has shown me the last 2 weeks of community living that it is a lot harder than I want to admit. The truth is that I am struggling with understanding how and why I have hidden walls in my heart. God has shown me the truth about who I am in him and the fulness I can become if I choose to seek Him on a daily basis. The nature of our hearts is to pull away but while we waste time trying to avoid the problems in our life God is showing us that it is all our choice to rest in negativity or seek the kingdom.
its a cool thinking process when we truly find out that God is with us and for us but will also never leave us for he has created us to be and experience the joy of life. The problem that I feel, is that when we find a wall in our heart that we have put up due to a past hurt or experience we close down. When we start to seek God in any way He will change our perspective He will direct our movie of life and pave the path that we get to walk. Colombia for my life is the time in the kingdom that God has blessed me with. The time is today to make a choice to fallow our truth and seek the kingdom. In my heart God has shown me many things I have done in the past but through it all he has been with me and has never let His love for me fade.
While I have so many things that I work through on the daily, God is with me and helps me to see the blessings of this life. My heart is so filled with joy when I see through the lens of thankfulness and I choose daily not to focus on what could be better but what is truly the point to life. The works of seeing through different perspectives allows each of us to make positive or negative decisions daily and weighs heavy on our hearts. The choices that I have made in life have been Devine and have lead me to become apart of something so much bigger than myself. While I have chosen to do not so encouraging things in life I have also had a very heavy heart when it comes to making decisions. While it would be nice to have others make our life choices for us the reality is the days we have lived is the result of our choices in the past.
I want to encourage you to seek God listen to what He is calling you to do and don’t hesitate to jump out of your normal space and be obedient. God has so may ways of speaking to each of us and each way is truly unique to each and every one of our hearts. If there were prizes for seeking God I feel there would be a lot more followers of the kingdom the issue is that most of us honestly don’t really want to devote to something we cannot see. There is many different types of things each of us has gone through to get to where we are now. It may seem very easy to live a fulfilling life with $ but from my heart money means absolutely nothing when it comes to the joy in our hearts. Colombia is such an amazing place and God is doing mighty things in our hearts and with the organizations and churches we have been working with.
leave all trust in the hands of our Heavenly Father for our life rests in His hands!
lead not by sight but by the spirit the lord has gifted us
