I call you worthy. I call you worthy of the plans I have for you. I call you worthy to be my son or daughter.All that I have for you is more then you can imagine. How could you not believe you are worthy when I sent my son to die on the cross for you? You are not worthy of His death for all your sins but I called you worthy. You are worthy. Don’t look down on yourself. Doubting if your even good enough. If you even measure up to the expectations or standards of another. I called you worthy of it all.
Here are 4 stories from 4 different girls all called by God:
As my family knows I’ve never really had a boyfriend. Never any serious interests. I of course did like guys but it never went any farther then “hangouts” or we “dated” for a few weeks just because we were in the same crowd. At times I wondered why nothing ever worked out. Honestly though most all of the guys that I did go for I knew down in my heart I would never bring home. I was out searching. An easy target that wanted to be wild and have fun and sometimes out for revenge. Always leads to being hurt, because I was doing it for the wrong reasons. I did want to be loved. I wanted to fill that hole in my heart that we all have but most of the time never look at. We try to fill it with so many different things and for me that was love. I realize now after so many mistakes that I wish I could go back and erase them. I went about it all wrong and I hope for those reading this that either you don’t or you learn from this. That hole in my heart needed Jesus. His love that encompasses all. He’s all I ever wanted or need. The very thing I was searching for in other interests and he was waiting right there for me. Asking God into my heart was the easy thing but seeking him with all my heart was another thing much more difficult. Once I had confessed He forgave all my sins from least to greatest. Now the hard part…forgiving myself and seeking a full on relationship with my Lord. I needed to first love Him and myself before I could truly love another. Its month 7 and it came to me that my word to work on was worthy. Worthy of love. To fully believe that in myself. Sometimes I catch myself believing it for others but not for myself. I catch myself saying cynical things about guys as a general whole. Or I see that good Godly guy who could have his choice of anyone so why choose me. I don’t measure up to that girl over there that’s giving you attention. I will fall off that pedestal. Of course I will that’s so unrealistic. Nobody is perfect but yet we still have are view of what we want or the misguided perception of what we see. Well no more. It’s about time to believe that no matter what may be in my past, that the past is in the past and God is calling me to something new. I am worthy and I need to trust God above all else, in all situations and all outcomes. Just so y’all know the past even counts for yesterday because were called to live in today.
It’s amazing that when we are kids we say what we think and we think what we feel, but somehow we manage to quiet our words and emotions. Growing up means learning proper etiquette, but we’ve lost honesty and we’ve lost our voices. I struggle with speaking boldly. Between being shut down or people being unhappy with what I’ve called out I’ve learned a lot about tone. But God calls my tone worthy. To step or to stand down on what God has given me to speak is foolish. These words are from Him and he calls it worthy. How others receive it is on them. The words I speak in love are powerful. He calls them worthy.
When you are a person who lives their life in such an insecure state, the word “worthy” can make you cringe.
-I’m not worthy enough to open my mouth and speak.
-I’m not worthy enough for that guy to like me.
-I’m not worthy of being called beautiful.
-I’m not worthy of being called skinny.
-My personality isn’t worthy enough of being liked.
The thought process is always the same when the topic of worthiness arises: I am not worthy. Of anything. But, you don’t dare admit this. To anyone. You go on living your life with fake confidence that doesn’t exist. You don’t dare admit it. Not until someone notices, and has you bring to the surface the self-deprecating beliefs you have towards yourself, and forces you to acknowledge how severe they actually are. I’ve lived with the belief that I wasn’t worthy enough for as long as I can remember. It was a borderline hatred of myself, and an issue I didn’t deem worthy enough to get help for or want to work on. My problem wasn’t worthy enough to be fixed. At least I didn’t think so, until month 1 of the World Race when a squad leader sat me down and asked:
“Alicia, don’t you think you’re beautiful?”
You can probably guess what my answer was, but in case you don’t know, it was a simple “No”. God has brought me so incredibly far since that day in month 1 of the race. It was rough though. Insanely rough. And still is. It’s been 7 months of growth. 7 months of what can feel like hell. 7 months of constant struggle. 7 months of the devil and God raging inside of me (shout out to the Brand New album of that title that so perfectly describes it), and 7 months of asking God to see myself as worthy. True worthiness isn’t wrapped up in physical beauty and wondering if my personality is “fun enough” for people to like. True worthiness is found in our relationship and identity in Christ, because, in what can be deemed as our most unworthy and sinful state, Christ died for us, making us worthy. Belief and acknowledgement in my worthiness is and everyday reminder. We live in such a shallow world, and it’s easy to get wrapped up in society’s view of what is beautiful and worthy. Therefore, it’s and everyday struggle of:
“Jesus, help me to love myself and know that I am worthy”.
I am worthy, and I am beautiful. Despite what this world says, I am worthy.
I’ve spent the majority of my life finding my worth in what other people think of me instead of what God thinks of me. Do people think I’m pretty? Do they think I’m funny? Do they think I’m smart? Do they think I’m interesting enough to hang out with and to want to be around? This last question was one I asked myself a lot growing up. When I felt like the answer was no I would sink into feelings of self hatred and begin to isolate myself from those around me. I would sink further when I began to compare myself to those whom I thought were pretty, funny, smart, interesting, and seemed to be on top of the world. As a teenager and during the first few years of my adult life I was already dealing with abandonment issues. So, when I felt like my family and friends were shoving me aside or not putting in the effort to hang out with me or not taking the initiative to hang out, it would bring me down pretty low. I was to wrapped up in what other people thought about me and wanting to be sought after. I never bothered to think about what God thinks of me and I never realized that God has been pursuing me for years. It turns out that he’s been pursuing me for 25 years and for a good chunk of my life I was basically giving Him the middle finger. On the race I’ve learned a lot of things about myself and about God. I’ve realized I am pretty, funny, smart, interesting, and God has thought these things about me since the beginning. He’s always thought that I’m worth it and someone He wants to hang out with. Heck! He spent 25 years trying to get my attention. Everyday He teaches me something and everyday new challenges arise, but as I begin to shift how I find my worth in Him and not others, I’m finding that life is a lot easier to handle and way more enjoyable.
As everyone can see we all have our difficulties that can be deeply rooted. The things we need to work on to be fully 100% Christ-like, that God cuts off to refine us to be more like Him. All of these God calls us worthy in. He calls us to receive and give love. He calls us beautiful. He calls us to speak. He calls us to be ourselves. He calls us perfect in His name. He calls us worthy of so much more. God sent his son so that we may be set free and He made us worthy.
God bless!
