Dear Current, past, and future friends
I am writing to say I apologize. I apologize for the difficult person I was and have been. The times when I only wanted to see what I wanted and not be willing to seek understanding. The times that I put too much pressure on our relationship and did not foster an environment for growth. I apologize for not seeing you and placing expectations that you had no idea were there. I apologize for expecting you to read my mind and getting mad when you couldn’t. I apologize for being selfish and expecting you to just deal with it. I apologize for not always honoring you in conversations and allowing others to say things when I knew they weren’t true. Silence is very deadly! I apologize for placing you on a pedestal and getting mad when you were not willing to be my idol.
The more I think of things to apologize for the more I realize how grateful I am for you. Thank you for not tolerating my immaturity. Thank you for leaving because it was the best thing that we both needed. Thank you for staying and fighting also because you saw and prayed for the good that you saw. Thank you for your patience and understanding. Thank you for seeing the brokeness in me and not being afraid to push past it. Honestly thank you for being a friend and while some were seasonal they have left a lasting impact. Thank you for allowing me to be what you needed and also being what i needed.
Honestly there is so much I can say in an apology and a thank you but overall I am grateful for the lessons. Lessons whether we know it or not that have shaped us to learn about forgiveness, growth and understanding, and a deeper understanding of Papa. So, while thank you and I am so grateful for every relationship that God saw fit to help come in my life.
I apologize and thank you
Daniella
