So I just want to take this time and say thank you to everyone who has supported me so far.
Since you supported me you helped me go to Training Camp.
Since Friday I have been slowing taking in all that Training camp was.and the words challenging, filling, and transforming come to mind.
Since im being honest those are not the words I was expecting to use to describe camp.
So let me break it down like this
—-Challenging
Storyteller workshop showed me that camp was going to be an experience filled with alot of information in so little time. Two weeks seems very long when you think you don’t have much to do. I was challenged through all of training camp to go beyond what I thought I could do and who I believed I was. I was challenged to break through walls that I use to protect myself from allowing people to see me. Because let’s be honest who really likes reject? I’ll be the first to say NOT ME. Which was why I built walls. I was challenged in completing the fitness hike which is 2.2 miles in 38 minutes. (Good News I PASSED). I was challenged to look failure, fear, doubt, and shame in the face and say you can’t control me anymore. I was challenged to be present and feel and process what was going on around me. I was challenged to begin believing the truth about me that I am a loved person.
—-Filling
I’ve been waiting to type about this. I was filled with so much love from my friends, family, supporters at home prior to going training camp that I didn’t think there was any more room to fill. Boy was I mistaken. I had no idea that Papa wanted to fill me with the love of my amazing Squad and Leadership. I never knew that in two weeks 21 squadmates, 4 trainers, 3 squad leaders, and 1 squad mentor could feel like home. It’s like as much as I didn’t want to open up was just as much as all of these people wanted to pour out love and embrace me. When I say I am filled I am filled. Papa could not have placed me with a better group of people.
—-Transforming
Monday October 22nd I was transformed. The day of the first hike. Looking back over that day I went from a caterpillar in a cocoon to a butterfly. On that day I finally came to the end of myself. All the way to that point I was doing life in my own shell. Those walls had me trapped and after all of the teaching we received this butterfly was ready to break free. I broke down halfway through the hike because I couldn’t do it alone. It wasn’t until I allowed others to come up alongside me that I was able to push through. I so grateful for the challenge and the filling because it helped me become transformed. Tuesday October 23rd I retook the hike and The people who helped fill me were watching a butterfly come free. I felt safe, loved, and valued because I understood who I was created to be. From that forward I was able freely be me.
Challenge. Fill. Transform.
Training Camp cannot be fully expressed you have to go to understand completely however, I hope this helps you get a glimpse.
