There’s always been an inner thought of mine that says, “Do I Truly Trust You God?” In fact, I’ll share some of those difficult things that i have been dealing with.
For those that don’t know, the World Race is where I’ll be traveling to 11 countries in 11 months and during that time, I will not be able to come back to my home and will be living out of a backpack for that whole time. So as you know me, I am someone who loves being with my family, so knowing that will I not see my family made me say to God, “I know you want me going on this trip, but “why wouldn’t you let me see my family?” I then thought about that for some time and said “Wait God wouldn’t want me to think that, so I’ll just have to trust Him to show me the reason why.” Then later on still in disbelief as to why that happened, I went to a Christian conference in Orlando, Florida where God showed me that my family was going to be okay and not to worry about them, which made me excited about the World Race and changed my thoughts about it.
Then I decided to go on the World Race website and look at the price of going on the World Race journey. When I saw it I thought “Woah I have to raise $19,300 to be fully funded for my trip around the world, how will I ever be getting that amount, that is the amount for a nice car.” I also had thoughts from the enemy in my head like “Daniel you won’t ever raise enough money because it is way too much money” or “Daniel you won’t get to go on the World Race and you’ll have to stay back in Richmond.” These feelings of doubt have led me to think, “Do I truly trust God?” and if I did, “why would I not allow God to have everything from me?”
Then I decided to look back at my life and what I’ve done throughout all of my ministry opportunities God has led me on and I realized that God has been very gracious to me. He has sent me some amazing supporters who have helped me go to a YWAM Bible school and a YWAM discipleship training school. That led me to the feeling that God is on my side in all of the different things that I’ve done. For example, God provided me all of my support money in my different YWAM adventures in like just a few weeks, which never happens. He also made me realize through those times that if I just decided to trust Him, He would provide a way for me to guide me to my destiny. In fact, everyday God says to me, “Daniel I am your ultimate provider and I will never stop providing for you and you are called to travel the nations and spread my word Daniel.” He also says “through me Daniel you can do all things.” That feeling has given me a lot of joy knowing that I can get everything through God.
However, even after all of that I still sometimes feel doubt that I will not be able to go, which is what I am working on right now. God has also told me that the World Race will be a big test for me because my route is about listening to God and doing what He wants me to do everyday. Those tests will show me if I truly trust Him and if I can lean upon Him everyday. I feel like it’ll be good for me because I’ll be able to truly see what it is like to be fully connected with what God wants instead of what I want. God also says that with my new family, I’ll be able to change all of the doubt to full reliance on God. It’s going be an amazing time for me and I’m excited for it.
