I know I have posted a lot of blogs this week on various subjects, so I wanted to post a strictly update one too. We have one week left here in Moldova. Next Monday, we will head back to Chisinau and then back to Romania. God has been doing a lot of work in me personally these past couple of weeks. I am excited to see what he will do with the remaining ten months. One purpose of this blog is to give you an idea of what exactly I've been doing and dealing with here in Moldova. I'll start with basics:
Veronica's mom has started renovations on their house so Taryn and I have had to move into the dorms at the church. We moved in just in time for the toilets to break. I miss Veronica's squatty-potty! Our teams have been doing a lot of prayer and worship in the mornings. We have also been helping out at the house of 5 young orphans. Their mom just up and left for Russia and left them to fend for themselves. We washed a butt-load of laundry, pulled up rugs, pulled out the dishes and mattresses, mopped, bathed the kids, etc. I hope the church here will continue to look after these kids after we've gone. Our teams have also been working at the greenhouse. I can officially say I abhor hoeing. Hate it with a burning passion, but all for the kingdom, right? Last time we were there, someone left the gate partially open and five beavers (actually like muskrats but they think they are beavers) escaped and we had to round them up. It was hilarious. Josh grabbed 2 or 3 by the tail and carried them back to the pin. We have been doing the kids program at the orphanage. It has been a great experience. It makes me look forward to next month even more. We have done home visits as well. We went to visit this one elderly lady who got on the floor and instantly started crying and praying when we walked in. It was great being able to encourage her. We had a concert a couple Saturdays ago. I put together the suicide skit and then shared part of my story afterwards. It was cool.
Ok, now for the more intricate stuff:
I have decided that I am done fighting who I am. I have been so consumed with wanting to be someone else, someone better. I have been fighting who God made me. God, who doesn't make mistakes. I am essentially a perfect creation. He made me this way for a reason and I want to find out why. I think this is the key to finally being able to walk in his power. I am letting go of my thoughts on what is best for me and trusting that he knows what he is doing. I don't need to change for other people. Society can love me or hate me. I don't care. God has been showing me a different way. I want to live a different life, not just the same life in a different place. I want to walk in the fullness of who God made me. My teammates have been showering me with truth. Truth about who I am and who I am not. They are helping me break the chains that have held me down. Lies that have been told to me all my life and I have accepted as truths. They are quick to point them out to me, and I am so grateful for them. I am not the same person who left.
I hope this gives you a good idea of what I am experiencing on this Race. I hope you will continue down this path with me. I covet your prayers and support. Thank you for all you do. Love you guys!
