It's been a minute since my last post so I thought I'd post an update. It will probably be full of really random thoughts. Sorry if you have trouble keeping up! Now, Let's see…
Well I've been once again struggling with the overwhelming thoughts of fundraising (though God did give me some awesome ideas I can't wait to put into motion. I'll share more about them at a later date!) The very real possibility of not meeting my deadlines has been on my mind. I've decided that if that happens, I am ok with switching to the September 2 route. It helps knowing not all is lost and I won't completely freak out if I can't go in July (though I really want to go in July and I will explain why in just a sec!) And, after I came to this point, God once again showed how amazing he is! I now only have about $600 left to raise before I meet my training camp deadline!! Woot Woot! Seems way more do-able than the $1700 it was last week!
Next: I fell leaving work Thursday night and sprained my ankle. It really had me down. I started worrying about how it would affect the Race, but today, I just gave it to God and he revealed a couple of truths to me about it. First, it's all in his plan, even if I have no idea how he plans to use it! Secondly, I got to see how many people were concerned about it affecting my trip. Everyone got worried it would couse problems. Its nice to know people actually do care about the race. Third, I realized that I was an example when I fell. I don't know how much of an impact it made but it was still an example. I didn't scream or cuss when I fell. I didn't chew the inconsiderate nurse out who said to tell me to get in my car and drive myself to the ER b/c she had enough to do without dealing with someone with a hurt ankle. I actually made a couple jokes. I'm glad to know I can be Christ-like even in an emergency situation. It encourages me.
Another thing I've realized is how much I'm already starting to love my squad. I love reading their blogs and cheering their fundraisers on. They are such a blessing in my life and I haven't even gotten to meet them yet! I am so excited to go to camp. I can't wait to see who will be on my team!!
Finally, God has been dealing with one of my greatest weaknesses: spiritual success. I struggle with wanting to be a "successful" Christian. I want to be one of those people other people look up to, and God is kicking my butt for it. He is showing me that I need to just concentrate on Him. It doesn't matter if other people think I'm doing well, it only matters that I glorify God. He is the only one who can make me feel accomplished and satisfied. This is, of course, a work in progress. It'll take a while for His work to be complete in this area of my life, but at least I am aware of it.
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