Well, I guess this is actually happening.
The last two days have been a time to reconnect with our squad and team, refocus on God and prepare to be completely submersed in a new and foreign culture when we leave for the Dominican today. The first day here I felt like I was mostly adjusting to not being home anymore and just coasting through our activities. When people asked what they could pray for me about I mostly just thought of other people and that nothing was really affecting me until we leave. But last night during worship God made me aware of the fears that I suppressed during the busy time of preparing for my departure.
I suddenly had doubts about my ability to do ministry in La Laguna (where we will be living) and how God would be able to use me. Even though we don't know yet how we will be involved with the community church, I was worried that I would somehow not be the right vessel for God to use to minister to those we meet along the way. I have such a desperate desire for God to work in my life, to use me as His hands and feet in order to bring His kingdom here on Earth. It seems like such a daunting task to a simple human like me and so I started to wonder how the heck that was even going to happen.
God snapped me out of that.
“The Lord [stands] by my side and [gives] me strength so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all might hear it.” — 2 Timothy 2:17
Its exactly as I said: I'm a simple human but God is an extraordinary God capable of anything and He just settled my spirit telling me that that's what He's there for. Do not be afraid of not being able to properly minister to people, “God is in control and you can do all thing through Him who gives me strength.” — Philippians 4:13
The Lord has a plan for our lives and so long as we're open and receptive to how He wants to work, and are obedient when we hear His voice, then He will continue to call us up to be the woman and men He created us to be.
As Paul said in the Bible: “I thank Christ Jesus our Lord who has given me strength, that He considered me trustworthy, appointing me to His service”
AND I WILL NOT LET HIM DOWN!
