LOVE IS A VERB!!
I remember back in Honduras our ministry contact Tony saying that he feels like a day has been good if he goes to bed feeling physically,spiritually and emotionally exhausted.
I thought to myself… Wow I don't know if I would want to feel like that every night.
Well for the first time on month 9 I can say that every night I am going to bed and I feel physically, spiritually and emotionally wrecked. And now I know exactly what Tony is talking about- this is exactly how I want to end my day.
This month we are in Chiang Mai, Thailand.
I have fell in love with the country. I have fell in love with the people. I have fell in love with the prostitutes and ladyboys.
Our ministry this month is to go into the bars. We sit and drink soda. We wait for The spirit to move. We simply be ourselves.
Before I left for the race God put a heavy challenge on my heart. He said " If you are a christian then you should be able to show me without saying a single word".
That to me is a challenge for daily living.
Who are we every day? Do we resemble Christ or does out attitude stink?
Do we show love instead of speak love?
When I heard what I was doing this month my heart began to pound.
Emmi- our ministry host- said "We go into the bars with the love of christ. We do not preach. We do not speak of God, but we show His love. In Thailand people are put off with others trying to preach the gospel (reminded me of scotland) but if you go in and love the way He does they will be attracted to Jesus within you. They will begin to trust you and soon they will ask you about your life. That then is the time to tell about your life. Not preaching but simply speaking of what God has done in our personal lives"
I finally felt like I had been put exactly where God had created me for. My heart beats for this type of ministry. I have realised only some can do this. I praise God that he created me to minister this way.
Right now I go into a bar and I sit with prostitutes and lady boys and love them.
Love. Simple!
My heart breaks for the people we have encountered.
God put it heavily on my heart to reach out to the ladyboys.
I wondered who I can be for the ladyboys or why he has asked me to reach out to them. I took the risk and got put with my best friend Jen to reach out to the lady boys.
Now I know exactly why He asked me to reach out to them.
My heart breaks for them. I truly believe I am feeling the fathers heart for these ladyboys. My heart is breaking the way His heart breaks for them.
We have met a ladyboy called Michelle.
We have decided to make Michelle one of our main ministries this month. We go and visit him every other night. Every night I walk out of the bar and I feel empty, broken, wrecked and completely lost. I wish we had more time. When you are in a relational ministry you realise that time is so precious- my love language is – quality time.
O Lord how I wish we had 3 months here instead of 1.
Gods wrecking my heart and my heart is physically hurting- I have a lump in my throat every night before I go to sleep. I am completely empty and I cannot do it on my own strength but I am doing it all only on His strength now. I go to bed wrecked but I wake up with this new outpour of love that is just waiting to be completely poured out on Michelle every night or whoever we meet.
In such a short time we are seeing results. Michelle loves seeing us. I know that this is only because he loves being in the presence of our Gods beautiful and amazing Love.
Right now its not my love but its His love that is being poured out.
Me, Michelle and Jen 🙂
Pray for us. Pray for Michelle.
I will soon write more about our time with Michelle. 🙂
Love Dani xx
