He knows what He’s doing!

He Knows what He's doing!

 

So during my race there has been many many times where I have said- " He knows what He's doing". 

There has been times when I have not agreed with certain circumstances or times where I have not been happy with decisions that have been made. But instead of making a fuss over it I have said " He knows what He's  doing". There  has been times when my team mates have went through hard times and I have been the annoying team mate that says " He knows what He's doing" or when feed back happens and my team talks about what God showed them through that hard situation and I get to say " Yea, because He knows what He's doing". 

God sometimes does things in ways that we don't understand or in ways that we don't like but,
in the end ,He knows what He is doing. I trust Him with my decisions more than I trust me to make them. I spent years and years making my own choices and living my own life and quite frankly I failed.

Life got low and messy when I was trying to do it on my own.

2 years ago I gave my life back to the lord and I decided to start trying to live my life with Him making my  choices. I will be honest – its not always easy. I have failed but Gods grace is greater than we can ever imagine. 

 

Letting God take control is the best decision I have ever made. I live life in peace and most days I don't feel stress or worry because I have put my full trust in Him.

Is life easy? NO! Is going on the world race easy? NO! Was going on the world race worth it? YES! 

 

This year has been one of the hardest years of my life, but its been one of the most amazing years of my life too. God has stretched me in ways I never imagined. He has put me out of my comfort zone! I have done things I didn't think i could do and our relationship has grown immensely. 

 

We are currently in Malaysia. Its month 11, our last month. This has been a weird month. We are thinking so much about home, family, friends, Christmas and our futures, while trying to stay present in our last month. 

I had received news in Cambodia that we were going to Gua Musang in Malaysia and that we would be teaching English.  Quite honestly I was so upset. I was angry. I even expressed it to my team- " I HATE ENGLISH arrrggghhh". I was so annoyed and having a very selfish moment. God quickly reminded me that I said the same things about Cambodia but there I was in Cambodia not wanting to leave the kids. 

I had to say to myself "He knows what He's doing",  but at that moment Idon't know if I really believed it. I was just so annoyed that I was going to finish my year teaching english. 

(Me Teaching English in Cambodia)

 

So we traveled to our contact and after a few beautiful days at Pangkor Island I had excepted that we were teaching. I had talked myself into it being good! We finally got to Gua Musang and settled into our house for the night. 

(Team Sown in the Spirit at pankgor island, malaysia)
 

The next day we met our contacts – Kumar and Josephine.  They told us a little about their ministry and vision. They told us their testimonies and how they ended up here today. The Holy Spirit was there. I could feel him all around us. I started to get emotional as they spoke because they were ministering straight to our hearts. They are so in sync with the Holy Spirit and God's voice. 

They live their life by the motto " If it matters to me then it matters to Him". They spoke about the small / big things that God does for us because He cares about everything we care about. They have seen miracles happen because they stand by this motto. 

 

They then went round the room and wanted to hear our testimonies. This has only happened once where contacts have sat us down and wanted to truly know us. I felt so loved. They told us that they want to be our Asian spiritual parents. Spiritual parents they truly are! 

 

They then said for this first week we have a few tasks for you but there is no classes and its important that you all get rest. We couldn't believe it. When you get to month 10 and 11 you become exhausted. Hearing this after having a rough month in Cambodia was amazing and a true blessing. They then went on to telling us that they are sending us to cameron Highlands for the night. 

 

The Kumars paid for travel and an apartment for a night. Like seriously -who does that?
We are meant to be blessing them but they blessed us.

We drove to the Cameron Highlands through some of the most beautiful sights I have ever seen. We went to tea plantations, strawberry fields, butterfly farms, bee farms and ate some delicious food. It was an amazing time and it felt like God stretched out the time of being there because it felt like we were there longer than a night. 

It was one of those weekends I will never forget.

(Cameron Higlands tea plantation)

(Cameron Highlands Butterfly Farm)

(Tea Fields at Cameron Highlands)

Having the Kumars as contacts is one of the greatest blessings we have been given on the race. They minister to our hearts,pray for us and want to hear our ideas. So here I am saying it " He knows what He's doing". I am so glad that God chose for us to be here and while I was grumbling about english and thinking I was entitled to something better God showed me different. 

 

The World Race puts us in places we don't like. God puts us in places we don't like. When we can't see the outcome we fear and don't want to even try. 

But if you don't jump into the deep you might miss out in the amazing things that the Lord has for ​you! 

 

So when things get hard trust Him because He really knows what He's doing.
 In the end its going to be good. 🙂

Love Dani xx