Since my last post, I have had a tough, crummy week of existence. This post goes out to my friends and family. This will serve as the accountability list of my life. This goes out to-
The Paul Montoyas
The Charlie Pagans
The Mike Pagans
The Michael Cooleys
The Pat Cooleys
The Kirin Cooleys
The Chelsea Cooleys
The Elliot Cooleys
The Blake Bernhards
The Jesus Medinas
The Edgar Luzanillas
The Mr and Mrs Estes
The Mr and Mrs Hanks
The Mr and Mrs Moskowitz
The Mr Bernhards
The Miss Bernhards
The Austin Carmens
The Fuzz Perricones
The Stella Perricones
The Michelle Perricones
The Jesse Steeds
The Bob Caldwells
The Clay Whitteds
The Boone Mccartys
The Wendel Grabers
The Jay Eldridges
The Kay Eldridges
The Lauren Freemans
The Laura Carters
The Lance Carters
The Brianne Turrentines
The Megan Keuttles
The Lyles
The Kara Corliss´s
The Erik Kerrs
The Dane Bowens
The Chad Ullmans
The Janet Slightams
The Greg Youngs
The Todd Craigs
The Cindy Craigs
The Kenra Murdocks
The Logans
The Scott Jones
The Sally Jones
The Bob Jones
The Robby Jones
The Cheyenne Rodriguess
The Jill Friends
The Kelsey Myers
The Merle Hanks
The Trygve Hanks
The Anthony Ordaz
The Jesus Ellins
The Jesus Huguez
The Jesus Griegos
The Jason Valdivias
The Kendall Watsons
The Grant Autreys
The Mr Autreys
The Mrs Autreys
The Pokeys
The Tom Schmunks
The Alligators!
The Parker Morales
The Peters
The Brady Wrights
The Kitty Kat Wrights
The Coby Crouchs
The Sam Crouchs
The Erin Fritzs
The Josh Moskowitz
The DJ Shooters
The Joe Hares
The Joe Dailys
The Jake Dailys
The Rocky Lagunas
The James Dailys
The Rebecca Dailys
The Kay Andersons
The Dave Andersons
The Maureen Andersons
The Kyle Smiths
The Petey Pollers
The James Gerbers
The Keegan Thompsons
The Chris Estes
The Mike Hanks
The Cam Robinsons
The Greg Allens
The Brian Blevins
The Mark Teviss
The Kevin Stones
The Christ Thompsons
The Molly Thompsons
The Tyler Woodmans
The Austin Carters
The Mr and Mrs Carters
The Lauren Eberhardts
The Freddy Eberhardts
The Ericka Eberhardts
The Mrs Eberhardts
The Matthew Loghrys
The Betsy Ferrers
The Yago Ferrers
The John Loghrys
The Mary Loghrys
The Mark Loghrys
The Stacey Loghrys
The Connor, Braden, and Tanner Loghrys
The Regan Moores
The Erin Moores
The Lori Moores
The Phil Moores
The Stevie Seales
The Deidre Seales
The Sally Monroes
The Gerry Schneiders
The Darla Schneiders
The Jordyn Schneiders
The Jessie Schneiders
The Grandma Jeannines
The Grandma Bettys
The Grandpa Schneiders
The Grandpa Loghrys
The Jonna Pitts
The Aunt Gails
The Uncle Steves
The Cousin Renees
The Cousin Chloes
The Uncle Chucks
The Aunt Lavons
The Freddy Rodriguess
The Trey Rodriguess
The Sonny Rodriguess
The Dan Montoyas
The Silvia Montoyas
The Kelly Kings
The Brittany Bakers
The Mac Mitchells
The Caitlin Parkers
The Naomi Hopes
The Team Shadow Feets
The World Races
The World Racers
The Granite Mountain Hotshots
The Groom Creek Fires
The Prescott Fire Department
The Johnny Yumas
The Cannondale Corp
The Specialized Corp
The Racers
The Riders
The Dreamers
The Telegraph Passes
The Long Climbers
The Shakers and Producers
The Mentioned and Unmentioned
The Living and the Dead,
There is no priority in this list, it simply goes out to those I have met and made something of and have met and have simply left as acquaintinces in this life I live. At the end of the day, all of my ¨network¨ is among the best of this World and will serve to influence it in the best way possible, becuase I will pray for God to influence them daily.
I was inspired to write this blog due to the lonliness of my life in the past week. I have been surrounded by people that love me in a new community in a different part of the world. What I have gathered from it is this
I can no longer be strong in myself. I must, I have to put my strength and confidence in my relationships and in God. I have been so selfish in my life. I am so Prideful. Even today, as I write this. I am working on it. But this past week I have been especially broken. I used to ride my bike 5 hours a day and praise and worship God asking him to help me die to myself daily. Well I dont think I ever really meant that, or didnt realize what it would look like. Now I know that I meant it and I know exactly what it looks like. It looks like a week feeble man laying in a Hostel in Antiqua Guatemala trying to count his progress in this world feeling bad he cant influence his network with his physical presence.
I have died to myself, trully. I have not exercised this whole week, I have fasted for 2 days and will do so another tomorrow, I have lived a meager life at best in my existence. The bottom line is, even in my most weak broken place, crying for my cousin on Life Support, hoping my mom and dad are both healed and fixed in Gods eyes, that my brother will find Christ, and for sooooooooo much more, I am so valuable and strong in my singleness because of the God I serve and the poeple I have in my life.
Kelly King, thank you for walking into the computer room in our Hostel on 1a Calle Poniente in Antiqua Guatemala. Kelly spoke life into me without even realizing it. I told her where I thought I was at, and she made me realize that in order to live life on this journey for the next 11 months, I have to be okay with dying to myself, and that my team, other teams, ministry contacts, people on the street, are going to be okay with a Broken Dan. That a Broken Dan is a whole man in the Eyes of God. PTL!
Heres my Resolution-
To never ever be afraid of dying to myself. That in my death, I will be made new. That my friends, ALL OF THEM, and my family, ALL OF THEM, will accept me and see me as a strong and wise man even when I am not strong and wise. That God views me as strong and wise when I am not, and that his perception of me is all that matters. To give everything up to God, EVERYTHING!
Heres my goals and Dreams-
To touch the lives of ALL of my family, to touch the lives of ALL of my friends. To speak life into them. To be passionate about everything God has put into my life and not ever ever leave a passion out of my life to focus on a new passion more. To be a Firefighter, a Skydiver, a Cyclist, a Father, a Husband, a Cafe Owner, a Coffee Shop Owner, a Bike Shop Owner, a Christian, a Nutritionist, a Pilot, a Lover, a Business Man, a Sales Man, a Skin Diver, a Hunter, a Fisher, a Driver, a Diver, a Real Estate Tycoon, a Philantropist, an Influencer, a Builder, a Visionary, a dreamer, a Doctor, a Lawyer, a Musician, a Singer, a Brother, a Cousin, and a Man in Christ and in GOD above all else.
I dont know where this all came from. This is a declaration at best. Receive it well. I may edit it later. This is just how I feel and want to continue to feel for the rest of my life. Thank you all for being a part of my life and I can not wait for what the future holds. I love you.
