The first 3 months of my trip was very difficult. it proved to be a trying time. I did not realize until now I was completely subdued. I had zero energy, zero zest for life, and was really sort of just stumbling through the motions of this mission trip. My heart was stuck on home. My family is there, my bicycle and my friends are there, my emotions and soul where there I felt. I woke up in ROMANIA. Thank you for that Eastern Europe. I will never forget. I lost so much from my daily life in choosing to not be present. I did have awesome relationships with my team, but they could have been much better. I am not apologizing for that or to them, because they know above everyone else about PROCESS! haha. they would laugh to read this. I also lost sweet sweet time with the ministries I served. I feel I was in tune for the most part with the work I did and the services I produced straight out of GODS love for the people I met. But I feel that it was held back, it was not in true Dan form. If you know me, you know my intensity for thriving in life. For pushing the limits in all that consumes me. Love for my friends and family, Passion for cycling, and depth of knowledge for food and romance. I someone how lost touch with those things even though I thought I was living lost in love for my hurting family back home. If this does not make sense, believe me, it did not to me the last 3 months of my life either.
All i can say is I have come from that weird, awkward place where no one wants to be because they are really just lost. I am working through the funk, as a good friend of mine would say (Petey), and arriving to a much better place. The arriving just may take awhile, and I am okay with that. I have returned to energy, to a thirst for me on a daily basis, to a place where I can dig in and get to the heart of the matter. I could write long sentences on what I am moving toward, but this is what it really is: The power of God within me. I have been broken of my own power struggle. I am alive in the Spirit of God. CRAZY. I am still Dan Loghry and I will never ever love anyone any other place than where they are in the exact moment our lives meet. I will not push anything on you. But I will show you the joy I have, and make you truly wonder where the heck I get my energy, zeal, and full blown love for life. I am digging this feeling and again goosebumps fill my body and sweat pours out as I ramble….
So i have been made new, just as we are all made new in God. It might have to happen a thousand times before I understand it completely, because it is a mystery. Fulfillment is life saving. And it happens everyday. Lose your life on a trip, at home, on the road, anywhere. Just lose it for the right reasons, and you will find it again on a whole new level.
Thank you Eastern Europe. Thank you Landing on Love. Thank you old and new ministries. Here I come.
