how much more productive I will be in Latin
America because I know the language. Also, how I will be able to
build more meaningful relationships with the people in Central
America.
Going back to camp. I was prophesied over and the lady said
that I will be used in Africa to do something
BIG. I was reluctant to that because I do not know the language or anything
about it.
But by having that attitude I have closed doors that are not
suppose to be shut. I shut God out of my life by doing that. Yes it sounds
harsh, but I shut God’s plans out of my life. I am guilty!
God spoke to me and said I can use anyone, anywhere, to do
my work, but I have chosen you to do this work. Why do you shut me out? I can use
anyone and anybody no matter who you are. Have you forgotten who I am? I am the
God of the universe!
That just hit me like a brick in the wall. I felt convicted
because I was forgetting that God is so much bigger then we actually let him
be.
Also, another thing is that God dose not need me, but he
choose to use me. He doesn’t need me to bring people to him, built relationships,
or to be the most productive I need to be. It is not about this!! To tell you the truth I always thought it was about this.
Saving people and bringing them to God.
But it is truly about SAVING MYSELF!
By going on this trip I am going to save myself more then I
could ever bring someone to the kingdom.
But don’t get me wrong there will be miracles happening,
people coming to Christ, and people being healed.
So, it answers that question “what do you want to get out of
this trip?” I am going to save myself.
It kind of sounds selfish, but if I don’t save myself then
how am I going to do the work that God has put before me?
