This whole week has been so crazy for me. Satan has me under attack… He always seems to keep pushing my buttons. But, I guess it is a good thing because he is SCARED of the amazing things that God is going to do through me… Satan dose not want me in Guatemala or on this Race!
Today we were doing ATL (I can’t remember what it stands for). It is about praying as a team and hearing God’s voice and letting Him lead us with visions, words, and his voice. So, today I was having a bad attitude about doing this. I was tired, drained, annoyed, just not in the mood. I was just in the mind set of just going with my team to pray but just blocking God from what he had to tell me. However before that I told one of my teammates that I was not in the mood, so she was able to pray over me.
Well, I went in to the café with a bad attitude and just sat there and blocked God. I know a lot of people expected me to say something, since God uses me to lead when we have to go out, and lead my team to God’s assignment that he has for us. But, I was speechless! Then some of the teammates started to get words… So, we went down to the lake where they were being lead to go pray for someone. As we got there we sat on the side of the street and prayed some more. I just sat there still trying to block God from speaking to me. Then I just felt something brush against me…. Then I started to turn to the lake to hear the wave’s crash, and then I closed my eyes as the wind was hitting my face. Then I heard God’s voice say to me IT IS NOT ABOUT YOU! That hit me like a ton of bricks, aughhhh!! That hurt! Owwww! Then he was like “tell them they have to go down closer to the river.” So, I did!
One of my teammates said that God was telling her the same thing, so we went down while the others stayed behind. For me at that time I really wanted to empower my teammate to use her gift and vision to where God was leading us. She is someone I felt God wanted me to push, so I did. As we got down to the lake we stood there and were really waiting on what God wanted us to do. We were trying to put all “clues” together. As we waited and saw a couple of people we thought it might me, but God did not give us a peace that is who he want us to speak to.
Then I saw a kid standing there. I asked my teammates “what about him?” We all felt a peace about it. We went up to him and just started asking him questions and getting to know him. His name was Edgar. I asked him about his parents and he said that he has never had a dad, also that his mom did not want him anymore. He was staying with a lady that he was delivering gas tanks to at that moment we saw him. My heart broke into pieces! I asked him if he goes to church and he said no. He did know who Jesus was. I told him that God loved him. I asked him if he was lonely. He said all the time. Then I told him that God is always there with him to comfort him. That even though we don’t see him he is there. I also told him that God can also be his daddy as he is to me. I told him I did not have a dad, but God is my daddy. His eyes started to get teary. I told him that God had HUGE plans for him. I am so happy we were able to bless Edgar, even though I was being and ungrateful brat.
Please keep him in your prayers. Also, keep me in you prayers. I am going through lots of trails right now. I really need all of you prayers at this time that I am out in the field. It really is a battle field out here. Satan is ready to destroy, but will NEVER have victory.
UPDATE on ministry: This Saturday we will be leaving to our location. We will be working in a rural village by Chiqumula, Guatemala. We will be working with a children’s medical clinic, sponsorship programs, nutrition program, door to door evangelism, and church building. All of our squad will be split up my team will be working with team Fuego this month then we will head to Nicaragua.
I might not have internet or phone in the village since it is very rural. Don’t forget to pray for me while this time. Love you all!
