A Spiritual Battle…. That is what I can call my life since I joined the World Race. I have been really embarrassed to share this with people because I did not want people to see me as a person that dose not love God. Until last night I was able to talk about it with my community group. In these past weeks I have been attacked by the devil in huge ways. I have been having dreams of demons attacking me. The dreams are dreams where you can’t get out of the dream and you have no strength to even lift a finger. It has been really scary. I prayed for those dreams to go away and they have, thank God. But also this week I have been questioning my faith and what I have always believed in. I’ve asked God how do you want me to tell people you are real when I don’t even know you are real. I wanted to give up on everything I ever believed in. It was dark, lonely, and draining. I felt like I had no way out.
Then finally I was able to talk about it to my friends. Thank God I have such amazing God centered friends! They made everything come out into light. The devil is trying to tear me down and keep me away from the plans God has made for me. He dose not want me to go on this World Race because he knows lives are going to be transformed. He knows God is going to use me in big ways on this trip. Also, when I asked God how I’m I going to tell people you are real, my friend Mandy opened my eyes yesterday to that question it is my testimony. God has given me a powerful testimony that will change lives. He has made me a new person with a new life.
Thank you to all my friend that have encouraged me! I love you all!!
I ask that you keep me in your prayer before I start the Race and after. the devil really wants to tear me apart. Pray that I will have the courage a strength to keep going. Also, please keep praying that the financial support will keep coming in. In order to meet deadlines. If you have any friends that will be interested in donating please let them know, it is tax deductible.
