I by no means am writing this to condemn myself or because I feel guilty for not obeying God. His mercy is forever….
However it was the right day to be in Poland. A few girls and I are visiting for the weekend since we are so close. Right outside our hostel in the main square I heard all this hollering. It was a group picketing against homosexuality and abortion and on the other side of the street was another huge march coming down the road–they were all homosexuals and transvestites. Well if you know me, I’m one to put myself right in the middle of what everyone else would call dangerous.
So I stood there prayed under my breath and declared truth, love and freedom over these people who are convinced they are gay as they marched by in pride. I couldn’t shake it I had to follow this march. This was opportunity waiting to happen, waiting for someone in the Church of the Lord Jesus Christ to do something with all these people walking by. I smiled to them as they walked by having faith that His love was pouring out of me that would cause conviction. As I followed this march I just prayed in the Spirit letting Him pray out His will for Poland knowing that we are God’s mouthpiece in the earth!!!
It finally came to a stopping point where they were all gathered. I envisioned me grabbing the mic or one of those speakers and just bringing them the Good News. I asked God to make a way. He did, but I chickened out. I got up right behind the truck with the mic. She was saying some stuff in polish and I just was going to ask if I could say something in the mic, but that old fear of rejection popped up and I didn’t!!
When she was done speaking they started breaking everything down–I still didn’t ask even know I knew I was supposed to, and yes that would be considered sin!! Knowing to do something and you don’t do it. It’s all good I’m not putting myself down!!
I hung out in the mob of maybe 30,000 of these people most being gay. I had talked to a couple of these guys after and had mentioned that I wish I could of said something in the mic. The guy frowning his face asking, “well what did you want to say?” Bingo! Well since you asked…. I just began to say that I’m sorry for how the Church of the Lord Jesus has acted and that if you all have been turned off of God because of how a Christian has treated you or represented God He is not like that!! He loves you and has a plan for you!!” His face was like stunned….and he said, “you should of said something.” Wow even the gay guy confirmed it. Ha!! I was slightly satisfied knowing if I just got the message across to that one!!
I just stood amongst this crowd watching all these people looking at them one by one and communing with God seeing them how He sees them. Some very unattractive, some scary looking and some just sad and so pathetic, but the more I pretty much gazed at them the more I saw what God sees–the potential, the beauty and the value!! His love just started to well up in me for them, and as they passed me by I just smiled with adoration towards them until I was one of the last people there. They are just confused, they are just hurt, they are just rejected trying to find acceptance in what they think is unique, but they just need to know how much God loves them and how He took their place in hell and died for them. And it is our job to tell them and NOT to condemn them for filling their empty void through the sin of homosexuality. We have all tried to fill this empty void through something whether it be sexual perversion or just over eating!! It’s all the same in God’s eyes!!
After I repented for fear of rejection I just thanked the Lord that He brought me here to Poland on this particular day when darkness would try to prance itself in the streets and I could be here speaking Truth in the atmosphere and holding at bay what the enemy had planned through the Power of God working in me. I was so in awe of God that He had me here that I really didn’t have time to get down on myself for not following through and stepping out of my comfort zone to ask for the mic to speak to thousands of rioting homosexuals. I am still growing in that area and thank God I’m not running from it anymore, but more and more running towards it!!! The devil loves for us to stay silent, but what Jesus did for us is ever speaking through eternity and we just have too much too testify about to be silent!! We were not meant to run from darkness, but called to be Light in the darkness!!
I ask you to pray for me like the apostle Paul asked…..for boldness and utterance to speak this Truth!! And to testify of the works of Jesus!! And thanks for taking the time to read this I literally am preaching to myself! LOL!!! I plan to hit some bars up here in Poland and do some bar ministry. I find when people are drinking they seem to be more open!!! Haha!!
Sorry I have not updated you about Ukraine it has been a busy month and a lot of manual labor. My hosts own a campsite that they have for children that are abused and orphaned. They own a shelter where they bring kids in temporarily when social workers are investigating their living situation and they own two foster homes for orphans to live. They own a farm to help fund their ministry. Right now we are just getting everything ready for the summer camp. Some people building the tower to the ropes course. Some farming, planting and milking cows. And a lot of painting!!
My host mentioned in the beginning we wouldn’t have a lot of people ministry, but the Lord wanted me to bless my hosts and minister to them, so I offered to be their housekeeper for the month doing deep cleaning and organization. So that’s what I have been doing!!
I also got to visit Lithuania this month where my family is from!!
That’s all for now!!
Love yous!
