October 13 2016
The sun is shining bright this morning, figured I would exercise this delegated authority Jesus gave us and so started commanding the sun to come out and it has been out everyday since. I think monsoon season is coming to an end. The Bible works when we just do it…haha!!
But as I sit here on the balcony over looking the open field He ever so clearly reminds me with His sweet manifested Presence that wherever I am in this world–in a land I do not know, with a people I do not know, and a language I do not understand that I am bathed in His Spirit. That He is with me and what seemed to be like a lonely place at first is now occupied with His overwhelming Presence.
Surely my dependence on Him has come to a whole nother level not having any other comforts like our phones and internet, close friends I call family, and those things that would so easily distract us in the States–I now have a choice to press into Him in an even more radical way than I have ever before.
When I thought I was close He woos me even closer. When I thought I was dependent on Him, He so gentle reveals another comfort that had my affection. When I thought I was fully going after Him He still reveals there is more!!! There is always more with Him because He is eternal!! And it just keeps getting better and better with Him. If it’s not then we are missing it and doing something wrong. If it is hard then we can know there is still part of self that hasn’t died.
I am finding truly in every circumstance that I can be content anywhere in everything, and that is true freedom!!!
And until I can get some sentences down to communicate with the locals there is one thing every language understands. My dad gave me this nugget before I left– and that is a smile. So as I walk and run the streets of Cambodia I can continually give them a warm welcome with a bright shining smile of Jesus in me and build relationship with them as I pass them daily with the Light of His smile and a hello. Praying and releasing blessing as I pass them believing that even in my shadow people can get healed because of the glory of God we carry.
This week our schedule had been been teaching English and music class. Going into different villages to minister to other children, and youth service. Which honestly many of us had no idea what we were doing but thank God for the Holy Ghost–you don’t realize what you have in you until you are thrown into doing something. That is the best way I know for me to learn is to just do it, not sit and listen on how to, but literally be thrown into it.
Also a few days a week we have devotion with the kids at 5am–which btw I love that they are being trained so young to get up so early to have devotion with God.
October 15
Today at our team time we had some constructive feedback which I ain’t gonna lie I was definitely not looking forward to it. It actually was good tho–we were able to open up to one another and share on what we could be doing better.
I am definitely facing myself and some attitudes and defenses I still have, but I believe being able to be intimate with one another to share and communicate our thoughts and what’s going on is huge key to freedom, since so many people just run from or avoid conflict with others and brush things under the carpet and nothing is dealt with or talked about, then things fester within people and the devil can have a field day with lies. Surely it is a good thing to get things in the Light.
October 17
This week has been definitely dying to self, with comforts stripped away and laying down your life to live in the same atmosphere of the people. But I’m realizing the more self is gone then the more of Him can flow out. And if there is anything I want it is for me to be able to give people Him. None of me and all of Him….
And that He would be glorified through me…
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