Vision.  It’s a simple word but it carries such meaning.  These past 6 or so weeks out on the Race, I’ve been thinking a lot about vision.  What is God’s vision for my life?  What is my vision for my life?  I sincerely hope the two align, but right now, I don’t really know what the answers are.  The more I try to avoid thinking about this though, the more it gets brought up.  Here at the Awakening, vision has definitely been nailed into my head–even when I was laying in my tent, sick, trying to rest.  I’ve been reading this book called Red Moon Rising over the past few weeks and wouldn’t you know that the chapter I read, and reread, yesterday was on vision.  In it was a poem that literally sent chills down my spine.  I read this poem over and over and over again as I laid there in my tent, away from everything going on and God spoke to me.  He convicted me in that moment to get over myself and start pursuing this vision. This is that poem:
 
So this guy comes up to me and says “what’s the vision? What’s the big idea?” I open my mouth and words come out like this… The vision?


The vision is JESUS – obsessively, dangerously, undeniably Jesus.

The vision is an army of young people.

You see bones? I see an army. And they are FREE from materialism.

They laugh at 9-5 little prisons. They could eat caviar on Monday and crusts on Tuesday. They wouldn’t even notice. They know the meaning of the Matrix, the way the west was won. They are mobile like the wind, they belong to the nations. They need no passport. People write their addresses in pencil and wonder at their strange existence. They are free yet they are slaves of the hurting and dirty and dying. What is the vision? The vision is holiness that hurts the eyes. It makes children laugh and adults angry. It gave up the game of minimum integrity long ago to reach for the stars. It scorns the good and strains for the best. It is dangerously pure.

Light flickers from every secret motive, every private conversation. It loves people away from their suicide leaps, their Satan games. This is an army that will lay down its life for the cause. A million times a day its soldiers
 
choose to lose that they might one day win the great ‘Well done’ of faithful sons and daughters.


Such heroes are as radical on Monday morning as Sunday night. They don’t need fame from names. Instead they grin quietly upwards and hear the crowds chanting again and again: “COME ON!”

And this is the sound of the underground The whisper of history in the making Foundations shaking Revolutionaries dreaming once again Mystery is scheming in whispers Conspiracy is breathing… This is the sound of the underground

And the army is discipl(in)ed.

Young people who beat their bodies into submission.

Every soldier would take a bullet for his comrade at arms. The tattoo on their back boasts “for me to live is Christ and to die is gain”.

Sacrifice fuels the fire of victory in their upward eyes. Winners. Martyrs. Who can stop them? Can hormones hold them back? Can failure succeed? Can fear scare them or death kill them?

And the generation prays

like a dying man with groans beyond talking, with warrior cries, sulphuric tears and with great barrow loads of laughter! Waiting. Watching: 24 – 7 – 365.

Whatever it takes they will give: Breaking the rules. Shaking mediocrity from its cosy little hide. Laying down their rights and their precious little wrongs, laughing at labels, fasting essentials. The advertisers cannot mould them. Hollywood cannot hold them. Peer-pressure is powerless to shake their resolve at late night parties before the cockerel cries.

They are incredibly cool, dangerously attractive

inside.

On the outside? They hardly care. They wear clothes like costumes to communicate and celebrate but never to hide. Would they surrender their image or their popularity? They would lay down their very lives – swap seats with the man on death row – guilty as hell. A throne for an electric chair.

With blood and sweat and many tears, with sleepless nights and fruitless days,

they pray as if it all depends on God and live as if it all depends on them.

Their DNA chooses JESUS. (He breathes out, they breathe in.) Their subconscious sings. They had a blood transfusion with Jesus. Their words make demons scream in shopping centres. Don’t you hear them coming? Herald the weirdo’s! Summon the losers and the freaks. Here come the frightened and forgotten with fire in their eyes. They walk tall and trees applaud, skyscrapers bow, mountains are dwarfed by these children of another dimension. Their prayers summon the hounds of heaven and invoke the ancient dream of Eden.

And this vision will be. It will come to pass; it will come easily; it will come soon. How do I know? Because this is the longing of creation itself, the groaning of the Spirit, the very dream of God. My tomorrow is his today. My distant hope is his 3D. And my feeble, whispered, faithless prayer invokes a thunderous, resounding, bone-shaking great ‘Amen!’ from countless angels, from hero’s of the faith, from Christ himself. And he is the original dreamer, the ultimate winner.

Guaranteed.
After reading that poem over and over and over again, I attempted to process and journal what I was thinking.  God took over and spoke clearly to me saying, “Get over
yourself, Daina!…He’s doing a work in you and He’s going to use you
in ways you can’t even fathom this year, this month, this week.  You
have to get over yourself and start being open to that.  Quit trying to
put Him in a box of what He can and can’t do in your life.  Hasn’t He
already shown you He can do it all?  Seriously!  Quit holding out and
give it your all.  Make that leap of faith again because right now
you’re just being a freaking wuss.  God has created you and destined
you for greatness so stop selling yourself short.  Accept who you are,
warrior.  Accept who you are beautiful.  Accept who you are, leader. 
You have an anointing and a gifting.  Step into it.  Walk in it.  Get
off your butt and walk in it because nobody’s going to do it for you
anymore!  Wise up and get over yourself!  He loves you.  Don’t
comprehend it.  Accept it.  Now go.  Shine.  Be bold and just be you!”  And as I write this now, I’m reminded of a blog I posted while in Ireland saying I WANT THIS FAITH!!!  
 
That’s what I so desperately want right now.  That’s my cry to you Lord God.  I’m sick of this life I’ve been living.  I’m sick of thinking I’m in control.  I’m sick of selling myself short and holding myself back from the things you have in store for me.  I am ready to pursue you with my whole being.  I’m ready to live that vision.  I’m ready to seek my own.  I’m ready to hear you, feel you, see you.  I’m ready to reclaim the nations.  I’m ready to give sight to the blind.  I’m ready to witness and ACCEPT your glory, oh Lord.  I’m ready, my God.  So ready.  I’m ready.  Bring it.
 
 
Note to my readers….sorry this got kind of long, I started to babble a bit and well, yea that’s just what I do…