“Ok but you have to keep your eyes closed the whole way. Just trust me.”
I laughed. Two years ago, not a chance would this have happened. Trust someone to drive me wherever the heck she wants all while keeping my eyes closed? I don’t think so! Two years ago, I would have peeked. Today, I wasn’t even tempted.
Tonight one of my best friends Margaret went all out to make it a memorable night for me. She planned a surprise going away party for me with some friends and let me tell you, I am blessed! She didn’t want me to know where we were going though so she had me close my eyes as she drove. Then, knowing I’d be tracking the route in my head, she proceeded to make random turns every which way to confuse me before finally getting to where we needed to be. Never once did I open my eyes throughout the entire journey-not when I got curious where we were, not when I could feel myself walking on grass, and not even when I heard a metal gate clanging (though I did threaten to kick her if she made me walk into it…jokingly of course).
I simply trusted.
To some people, this doesn’t seem like a big deal. For me, it’s huge. I’ve never been too keen on those trust walks and such because frankly, I just never really trusted people. I was always paranoid they’d crash me into something or lead me astray so, I had a tendency to peek. I wasn’t a big time peeker, just enough to ease my anxiety and make me feel safe.
Trust. It’s a funny thing isn’t it? I mean, what makes one person have to earn it and another person simply having yours? I don’t really know the answer to that. What I do know is that over the past two years, I have learned to trust. Yes I am referring to friends such as Margaret, but even more so, I’m referring to my relationship with the Lord.
Anybody who knows me well knows I love Proverbs 3:5-6 so much so that it’s even on my voicemail for all to hear. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” Just what does trusting the Lord with all your heart entail?
Let me tell you…for me at least.
Trusting the Lord means abandoning my will in order to pursue His. His will for me is the World Race. Trusting the Lord means putting every ounce of faith I have in Him that He will provide for me financially, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. It’s feeling your heart skip a beat when your will seems to align with His. It’s knowing that nothing will harm you or cause you great sorrow. It’s knowing that He’s the one in charge today, tomorrow, and everyday to come.
Trusting is not always easy. It’s human nature to want to know every little detail about every little thing. This, however, is not God’s nature. God’s nature is one beyond our understanding. It’s one that will never make sense if we try to understand it but if we simply let it be, it’ll easily fall into place. Trusting God means being flexible, being willing to change at the drop of a hat. It means abandoning expectations about everything and simply letting Him take the reigns.
Trusting God means not being scared of what’s to come-knowing He won’t ever harm. At the same time, trusting God means not being scared to be scared or to feel, as emotions are often sincere gifts from God. Trusting God means giving Him all of you…not just some second-version of yourself. It means offering Him every decision, the big and the small. Trusting God means knowing God knows and will execute. You are His child and He will protect you; trusting the Lord means letting Him.
