“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be given you.” Matthew 6:33
With each day that passes and I get closer to embarking upon this amazing journey, I find my mind getting bombarded with a whole new slew of thoughts.  I find myself questioning why I chose this trip over some other year long program; questioning whether God will really provide for me financially; and questioning whether I’m really ready to leave life as I know it to live this life of service.  Sometimes these thoughts get overwhelming and I begin to feel anxious and restless…but then I pray and I am reminded of why I’m doing all of this.  Matthew 6:33 clearly tells us, “seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be given you.”  In other words, it’s all for Him.  It’s for His glory that this is even a thought, and He reminds me that daily.  When I doubted He’s provide for me financially, He met that first goal I had, surpassing it as if to say, “Fear not my child.”  One of my teammates, Nikki, wrote a poem as a response to the question, “What is the World Race about?” and well, I just wanted to share that with everyone, as it touches upon the true purpose of this journey.  It goes as follows:

It’s not about what we need… It’s all about His love

It’s not about what we want… It’s all about His grace

It’s not about what we’ve done… It’s all about His righteousness

It’s not about what we’re going to do… It’s all about His faithfulness

It’s not about where we’ve been… It’s all about His mercy

It’s not about where we’re going… It’s all about His goodness

It’s not about our strength… It’s all about His power

It’s not about the people we’re going to see… It’s all about His compassion

It’s not about the places we’re going to visit… It’s all about His majesty

It’s not about our dreams… It’s all about His glory

It’s not about our desires… It’s all about His sovereignty

It’s not about our plans… It’s all about His will

IT’S NOT ABOUT US… IT’S ALL ABOUT HIM!!!

“He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30

I’ve also been doing a lot of reflecting on my life, these past few years, and God’s goodness lately and well, I’ve just got to say, I find myself having more moments of pure joy and excitement for this trip than I do hesitation.  God has literally transformed me over the past 2-3 years to the point that, at times, I don’t even recognize myself anymore.  Never did I think I would be at such a place where I’d have the opportunity to travel the world for God, let alone be excited to do so!  As I reflected back on the past few years though, I began thinking to myself, “I’m not that bad of a person.  I never was.”  But then we had a speaker at Intervarsity who said something I’ll never forget.  He said, “There is a difference between serving Christ and following Him.” This really cut deep to my heart and made me question what I had really been about the past few years and well, what I’m really about now.  Am I about serving Christ or following Him?  If I want to truly follow Christ, I can’t help but serve Him too but the reverse doesn’t hold true.  It’s easy to conduct acts of service or charity, things that really serve Christ, but not live your life following Him aside from that.  As I continue to prepare myself for this journey, I keep reminding myself that serving Christ is not enough; I have to want to follow Him!