My Heart Speaks
Why?
My heart keeps speaking…you think it would quite down after 6+ years later, but it hasn’t. I have had this longing for something more, for an adventure in life, an adventure with traveling, but not just any place, to remote places, but most of all to do something more for people of the world and to explore the unknown areas for those unreached people…God’s people. I may not be able to speak their language, but I can show them what God’s love is.
The seed in my heart probably started as a young age, probably about 6 yrs., I would go along with my parents and family friends to missions’ trip to different places in Mexico. I can remember playing with the children not understanding a word they were saying, but somehow connecting with them. Even though there was the time of getting sick from drinking from the water hose (learned quickly that was a bad idea) It was an AMAZING experience, so I continued going on more short-term missions trip though out my early adult years working in Construction of houses, Church bible studies, Dramas, Cooking for 500+people, and recently help feeding 1000 needy families in the community (HCF Community Thanksgiving. I’ll put up a link for that). Loved it, and I highly recommend it.
What Happen?
Since then it has been long while. So for about 6+ years now I have had this longing on my heart to do a long-term mission, and I once in a while I would look through different volunteer programs get all the information but it never worked out, and of course life struggles, losses, my own expectations and fears and disappointments, hurtful events came along and it was overwhelming, and me being indecisive didn’t help either. My joy and the desire in my heart began to get fade. It was like if the “Joy Stealer” came along and took it away. The longing wasn’t there anymore; I started feeling comfortable in life kind of like I’m just floating along a river along for the ride.
It’s interesting how life can do that to you. When you think about it though, life can be what you make it or let it become(If that makes sense (?). We have a choice. At that time I let my own negative thoughts and life weigh me down. Great thing is, God puts the right people and situations in your life to help you along back on track. And He did just that. Slowly my heart healed, and I could hear it again though it never went away, I just couldn’t hear it as loud because of all the static of life. And in a way i am greatful for it, because I know its just a part of God molding me into the person I'm meant to be.
Side Note: Thank You my wonderful family, HCF Family, and Friends. I'm blessed to have amazing people like you in my life, and to be able to work with you amazing people, even better. I love you mucho!! 
….Oh and also ​a good book/ class I would recommend anyone taking is called Healing is a Choice by Stephen Arterburn. I think we all need some type of healing in one way or another, and what better way then doing it together. Just a thought.
Why World Race?
One day I was looking through a volunteer organization and came across this video that kind of sparked something inside me again. So I continued to read through different missionary blogs (like the one you’re reading right this second;). So I thought hmmm maybe. So I spoke with a trusted friend and experienced Missionary who gave me prayer/guidance for what the next step should be to fulfill this “tugging/speaking heart”. First was praying for a date to make a decision. So with much prayer and even debating, I felt God finally say not only “GO” but “Let Go and Trust Me,” I still had/have my own expectations of where in life I'm supposed to be, certain situations, fears, and comforts. So I struggled even then after the many years of wanting to do a mission, and it was hard, but of course He won:) I forget He knows me better than myself and has my best interest at heart. 🙂 “I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” -Jeremiah 29:11
“God is in the business of strategically positioning us in the right place at the right time. A sense of destiny is our birthright as followers of Christ God is awfully good at getting us where He wants us to go. But here’s the catch: the right place often seems like the wrong place, and the right time often seems like the wrong time.” – Quote from In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day
So I am Letting Go, Going, and Trusting Him
I Go September 2013
My Race, My Race: 11 Months in 11 Countries
Guatemala, Nicaragua, Costa Rica, Cambodia, Nepal, Thailand, Malaysia, India, South Africa, Mozambique, Swaziland (not in order)
It’s funny as I think back all those years on how he has prepared me and shows me little reminders that He is always there. Even today, while working on organizing my things for this mission trip and getting overwhelmed, I suddenly hear the sound of a guitar and voices singing out of my window. It was a song that we used to sing at the churches in Mexico Missions. Though not in perfect pitch, it was Beautiful and there was a sense of peace, and I can hear my heart speak once again
“Life is not a problem to be solved; it is an adventure to be lived.”-Quote from Captivating
Thanks for reading my blog!! Hope you continue to journey with me on this mission!!
(First blog ever, hopefully my thoughts made sense. lol)
If you would like to donate towards my trip, that would be such a blessing!!
Fundraising total: $15,500
Due June 29th-$3,500
Due August 18th-$6,500
Total Due by month 6 of mission trip (February)
