I am like a house with many gardens. Jesus and I tend to them everyday. One day Jesus lead me to a garden in the heart of the land. There were these tall walls all around, with vines covering them. There was this metal door and it was locked. Jesus said lets go inside. I said I don’t know if I have the key. Jesus said “you are the only one who has the key. So as I search through all my keys I find one that I don’t remember seeing before, so I try it and it opened the door. As we look inside it is a complete mess except for one tree in the center, a weeping willow tree. I asked the Lord why was everything a mess except for the weeping willow tree and He said “the willow tree was produced when you processed pain, hurt, loss, or rejection. The rest is all the stuff you just put band-aids on or suppressed because you didn’t know how to deal with them. Why did it take till now for us to find this? I asked the Lord. He said because “You were too busy trying to fix the things at the surface instead of getting to the root of things.” Can we fix it? I asked. He said “of course but this is not going to be easy. you will be a lot different, both inside and out. Are you ready for it? ” I am lets get to work. Jesus said “ok lets start with all the lies that have taken root whether by others, by Satan or by yourself. If it is not something I have spoken over you it does not belong.” Lord this is really painful. I know says the Lord but if we don’t take it out by the root it will just come back. now lets take out the roots of lust that started when you were five years old by seeing your first porn. that grew when you were eight when you experienced oral sex the first time.” Lord I forgot that was even there, I thought I had dealt with it. Jesus said I know you didn’t know how to deal with it so you just suppressed it.” Jesus said now I take out the lie of rejection, the feeling of no one ever being there for you. That started so young it made it so you didn’t and wouldn’t count on anyone, sometimes not even me.” I am sorry Lord, I didn’t mean to keep you out. He said”I know, Lets did up this here its a big one” I asked what is it? Jesus said “fear of being a mistake” Where did that come from Lord? “It came from when your mom told you she was unhappy with your dad since your oldest brother was only one year old. You were never a mistake, I have always has a purpose and plan for your life.” Lord I am overwhelmed how much further do we have to go. The tears won’t stop flowing.”it’s ok my child they are watering the ground, preparing for the new.” Now lets dig up these, wow these have thorns around them what are they. “These are the burdens you were never meant to carry. Like raising yourself, telling your father your mother was leaving and the fact your father said he would have killed himself if you left.” Lord I can’t take much more can we stop for now? “Well we can but the thing with weeds is if you don’t get them all they will spread”said the Lord. Alright proceed I said. “There is only a little more to go, lets take out the lies that you can’t do something because of your size or weight. If I have called you, I will equip you not to just survive but to thrive. Look what I did through David and Moses. David was said to be small yet he was able to take down a Giant. Moses had speech problems but was able to lead the Israelite’s out of Egypt. I have called you to go to the nations and you have already been to a few. Only bigger and better things are ahead. Lastly lets take out this one bad habits that were taught or came from being forced to diet so you felt you needed to sneak food. those triggers of one sweet, that leads to only sweets or junk that bad habit came from being forced to only eat junk food for a summer. I am breaking all these patterns and lies spoken over you” said the Lord. Wow Lord there is just dirt left around the willow tree now. Are we done yet? “No we are not done, now I am planting new things in the soil while it is wet from your tears. I am Planting true Identity, Strength, Joy, Peace, Patience, Perseverance, Goodness, Kindness, Love, Unconditional Love.” Wow God this is a lot, I am still crying. I don’t understand, we have cleared the ground but I am still crying.”You will until you can completely grieve those loses in your life. It will take time, tears will come and go but you are watering the ground. so the things I have planted will grow.” Lord can I ask you for something in return for all this pain and hurt, for all the things that kept me from living the way You intended? “What is it my child?” Can I ask for a Million Souls for each thing that Satan tried to hold me back with?”You can but you have to knock down all these walls around this garden, so that all those souls can have a place in your heart.” Lets do it Lord! “Ok but know that means you being vulnerable, that means we will use your past to touch hearts, that means you will have to work hard tilling and keeping the weeds out. That means no more secret garden, no more hiding away. You sure you are ready?” Yes Lord I am ready. “Alright take a look around the new has come. Starting now there is a new you, describe what you see.” There are no longer separate gardens but one Large garden. There are Mountains to make me stronger, there is a babbling brook with a bench under the tree its so peaceful. There are fields of wild flowers and butterflies. There is birds singing songs of Joy all around. There is beauty that is surrounding me. Lord I sense your presence all around me.”That is because I will never leave you or forsake you.” I am ready to move forward, I am ready to press into all you have for me, no fears holding me back. What now Lord? “One step at a time, one day at a time, Just walk with me. I will lead you on the adventure of a lifetime” says the Lord. I trust you Lord I am with you all the way.
