Truth: I hate asking for help. I am trying to grown from feeling that way and I have in some ways but it’s still true right now.
Yeah, I know it may not seem like I do but in reality I do.
People WORK HARD for their money and I haven’t had a “job” in over a year but I’m asking them to sacrifice for what God wants ME to do.
It just sounds crazy to me because I serve a God that isn’t limited by money. $6500 is LITERALLY NOTHING to Him. He could just make it happen if He wanted to but He’s not choosing to go that route with me in this I don’t think.
I realize that He wants people to invest in the Kingdom because He wants all of us to be in on this grand scheme of things. I get that.
I realize that He wants people to sacrifice because we are called to GO in some fashion. That just looks different from person to person in some ways and exactly the same in others.
I understand that I need to learn how to swallow my pride and depend on Him and the community He has placed me in to support me.
I GET IT.
I promise I do.
But it’s still hard. I’ve never grown up a kid that had abundantly more than other kids. My family wasn’t dirt poor but momma definitely worked 2-3 jobs at a time to provide. We never went without that’s forsure. Momma probably did but us kids never knew about it. I got my first job as soon as I could at 16 years old and have pretty much had some kind of job ever since. My longest time without one was 6 months because of my first semester in college (I wanted to be focused LOL) Spoiler: Didn’t graduate due to lack of focus. That being said I’ve usually had a steady (sometimes very low but still it was something) flow of income. Of course, I’ve had to reach out and ask my parents for help. My dad pretty much bought my first car and they, my Mom and Dad, have always helped me when they could or when I needed it.
I mean this past year has blown me away. When I saw the amount necessary $16,617. I thought that must be the catch. Even though I felt that I was supposed to go I figured there’s no way I could do that. I don’t know anybody with that kind of money. I relied on my own strength at first to make this happen. Then God showed up and showed out. I was working at Indian Hills Country Club, and three men came up and pledged $3,000 within a week of me knowing I was accepted. I was blown away. I got to $5k in less than a week. God confirming I was right where He intended. Then other people came up and supported me. They held fundraisers, meetings, and helped me any way they could. I WAS TORN UP. I went up until the very last month still fundraising but through you all WE GOT FULLY FUNDED and then I realized I would need to do it again and I got discouraged. I told God, “You’re gonna need to make it happen quicker this go around because I don’t wanna go my entire race doing this again.” Lol at me telling God what He’s gonna do. I’m nearing $1,000 and have $5,500 to go. THATS A LOT. Fortunately, it’s not a lot to God. He never intended for me to do this alone.
So here I am.. reaching out to you again. My family, supporters, prayer warriors and declaring victory in this again. It’s the last day of the year and if you’re looking to make a donation or give to the Kingdom in a way that maybe doesn’t make sense. I pray that you’ll do that here. Your giving impacts people’s lives and my own in so many ways. As a missionary, I have to surrender how it’s going to happen and trust that it will happen. I can’t and don’t want to do this without you all. I can’t thank you enough and I am so so so so so so so grateful for your sacrifice and love.
HAPPY NEW YEAR YALL!
