I have been on American soil for exactly 1 week and 6 days and it feels WEIRD!
I am getting used to life in America all over again and it doesn’t feel easy. I am trying to figure out what jobs I should apply to and how I can give back to my community here at home as well as get more involved in building a community that I desire. It seems like ALOT and some days I have found myself do nothing but sit on the couch all day and let me tell you. It bothers me. I feel useless some days and others, I feel content. I can’t seem yet to figure out the balance and that is okay, I guess. There are times where I refuse to look at other racers profiles because I get so full of jealousy I can’t stand it, lol. Honesty hour here.
There are also times where I meet old friends for coffee and they let me speak on my past 16 months and ask questions and let me into their lives and we both give each other the space to just be and it feels so right that there is nowhere else I would rather be.
Both ends of the spectrum right there people and it is not easy choosing where I am going to fall. With pressures, though unintended but still received, to get a job and figure out what is next I dont even know where to run.
How do I even put the Race on a job application?? (We had a breakout sesh and I chose a different one oops) I do I accurately describe on a resume what I’ve been doing for the past 16 months without scaring the potential employer away. Heck, idk this is an attempt of asking for help from all you Alumni out there.
It is also an attempt to let you in on what is going on at home. For those of you that have tried to reach out, thank you so much. It means more to me than you will ever know.
For those wondering, well what is next??
The tentative plan is to (try upon re-admittance) go back to school and get a degree in both Teaching and Business; potentially, teaching English as a second language.. maybe. Business to help me understand better how to begin and/or run a business and what makes them work. Long term dream to open a hostel someday that helps equip others within the community to better their lives and help the community in others ways through profit while providing an affordable but nice place to lay your head at night. Maybe overseas, maybe not. We will cross that bridge when we get there.
So yeah, that pretty much sums up my time here at homeland thus far. I am excited to go back out for a week in September and see the squad though. Reading their blogs and seeing their posts has helped encourage my heart along the way. Speaking of which I am about $1,300 from that happening and would love the opportunity to go out to see them!
If you’d like to give towards getting me there please click the donate button above and give your tax-deductible gift! THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH for partnering with me alongside this journey. It’s been an incredible gift you all have given me to help me see the Woman that I’ve always been created to be and to walk out of a lot of shame, pain and anger in my own story and to help other women and men do the same. Theres not enough words to express my gratitude to each of you. THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
