God brought me to my knees, but not in the way you may be thinking. Since I began the World race I have been seeking to be more intiment with God, to spend time with Him in our secret place together, to be brought to my knees in front of His throne. Well here I am month 3 and still seeking intimacy with the Lord. On Wednesday (3/21/18) God brought me to my knees in front of a toilet. Not exactly the throne I pictured, but God has a sense of humor. Yes I was on my knees in front of a toilet puking.
I have no idea why or when it would end, but there I sat unable to go to ministry, unable to move, unable to do really much of anything. In that moment of realizing I would not be hitting the streets with my fellow teammates today I sat thinking of what to do. I looked around the room to see most of my teammates with their bibles open diving into Gods word, so I though I would do the same. As I read my attention was quickly grabbed by Enoch, the one who walked with God and was no more. Enoch’s relationship with God is what I have been seeking. I long for what Enoch had, to be know as the one who pleased God. As I continued to dive into the life of Enoch, what little is accounted in the Bible, my teammates began to leave for ministry.
I sat in awe of Enoch and Gods intimacy, an intimacy so deep and so personal. I pondered on this for a bit, wondering how to walk with God and then be no more. As I thought I came to the conclusion that just being is all I need to do. I need to make time to just be with God. To sit in His word, to wait on His presence, to just be. To not leave His presence too early and not keep Him all to myself. As I came to this conclusion I drifted off to sleep so content with just resting with God. God brought me to my knees in front of an unlikely throne to show me He just wants time with me that He just wants me to be with Him.
I am such a go and do person that it took a day of sickness for the Lord to slow me down and get my attention. I am so thankful for that time of reflection and reminder that God just wants to spend time with me. Now I sit here on our sabbath thanking God that He showed me its ok to not do anything but rest and be with Him, because that is exactly what I need each and everyday. This is not something that will just come, but the lord is showing me I need to walk in obedience of sitting with Him and be disciplined in this. He is showing me that Enoch would spend time with Him everyday and that is how he pleased God. Enoch never left the presence of the Lord. I no longer want to leave the presence of the Lord but let His presence lead every step I take.
