Something God has been bringing to my attention lately is that I can get caught up in having to have something epic happening in my kingdom journey. Something I see as story worthy and sometimes that is what I seek instead of seeking God. Many times I think that there has to be a huge event that is visually evident for others to see and understand. Or some sort of struggle that I am working through and figuring out how God is using it, to feel as if God is doing something in my life. If I am completely honest this is partially one reason why I haven’t blog in a while, I didn’t feel as if anything “blog worthy” was happening.
But, oh man I am so wrong. God is showing me that I can still be in his presence and find joy in simplicity and being content. And oh I have come to a place of contentment! Contentment meaning “a state of happiness and satisfaction with what you have”. God is satisfying me and in that I find so much Joy. I am finding so much contentment in where I am and that I am able to sit at Gods feet and breathe Him in.
Now getting to this place of Contentment has been a journey that is for sure. The past few weeks when I would go to God in prayer I kept getting “shhhed” by God. I would begin to speak and my spirit just felt “shhhed”. At the time I was somewhat frustrated that God would not let me speak, I had so many prayers and request to bring to Him. But, I kept feeling God say, “be quiet my child and let me be with you.” In those moments all I could do was take a deep breath and let Him fill me. It was a subtle fulfillment, just what I needed. Something so simple, so peaceful, and so God!
Now a week after letting God “shhh” me and sitting with Him, I feel ready. I have His spirit within me and I can come to Him with those prayers and request I have and give them to Him. I now see that if I would have pushed and prayed what I wanted to when God was telling me to sit and be quiet my prayers would not have aligned with His kingdoms glory. They would not have come with open hands, I would have not been open to what He was saying. But now, I can speak those prayers with confidence that my heart longs for what Gods heart wants. My heart wants to understand what God is saying and is going to say when I come to Him. My heart is ready to listen and give to God.
God “shhhed” me so that my heart could rest in Him. So that my heart could get a glimpse of the peace he offers. So that He could remind me that He is in control. So that I could be in His presence. Now when I come to God I just want to lift my hands in worship, to surrender, to be with Him, and to lift up all to Him because He continues to fulfill me.
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