I was looking at my blog page and realized how it is kind of empty, so I thought hey, I should write something. I thought about it some, and well, couldn’t come up with anything “blog worthy”. But then I realized I’m not here to share things that are “blog worthy,” I am here to be real with you and to share what God is doing. So I would like to share my prayer from earlier last week…
Dear Lord,
I am scared. I am scared to tell my job I am leaving in 6 months, scared to leave this place I call home, scared to leave these friends and family, whom I love. You know this fear is deep, something that seems to naturally come when I am faced with something that is beyond myself. And oh, my Lord, how this is beyond me. It is beyond what I have ever thought I would do, beyond what I ever planned, beyond my comfortable life. It is most definitely beyond me. But, you know what is so great about the beyond is that you are there. That’s where You are, sitting out in the beyond, reaching out for me. Lord, you have heard my prayers to lead me beyond myself, but it is almost like I never thought about what I was asking for. ‘Cause boy, oh boy, I would have never expected this. Maybe it is a good thing I didn’t really know what I was asking you for, because I think I may have asked for something I saw as more tangible. But you saw what I needed and I need this. I need to fully step out and lean into your heart. Not only are you taking me beyond the boarders of my own country, but beyond the boarders of my own faith. So Lord, here I am today asking you to take these fears, that I may be justifying as rational, and replace them with the truth that you have called me beyond to where you are waiting.
Amen.
I don’t particularly like admitting that I was scared, but I was. I was scared to telling my boss and coworkers. I was scared to be apart from a place that I have always called home. I was afraid of relationships fading due to distanc. I was afraid for me. I was focused on me, but God reminded me that it isn’t about me it’s about him and his kingdom. And in him there is no fear!
Now a week later reading over this prayer I can see God working. I have told my job about the world race and everyone there has been so encouraging. I know God is going to use this as a doorway to speak of Him in my workplace! (Thank you to those who were praying for me during this time.) I am seeing God answer so many prayers, not only my own, but my friends prayers as well. It is amazing what we can see God do when we are actually paying attention. I am so excited to continue to see God move and answer prayers.
God bless,
Courtney 
X
