(Scroll to the bottom of this blog post to see my World Race fundraising update!!)
It’s been almost two weeks since I have posted a blog post about either my trip or how God has been moving in my heart. I have been very conflicted about what to write about recently until last night at the youth group I attended. The sermon was on Pride and it was a powerful and moving sermon… But where God really pressed into my heart was in our small group time.
While I was in my small group last night one of my leaders asked me a question that really took me by surprise. She asked me…
“Courtney, if you were to break all your bones or become paralyzed would you still feel like God could use you?”… After I picked my jaw up off the floor, I responded with a simple… “I sure hope so”.
I had never thought about a situation like that because I have never been faced with a situation where I would have to think about something like that. When I was overcome by the Lords presence the summer after my freshman year to pursue being a missionary, I didn’t think twice. I just began to pursue that path… But I tonight when I was driving home I thought about that question.
What if something does happen to me?… What then? How would I still do missions? Does God give people TWO paths? I was so conflicted and confused as to what to think of that question… Until I felt God plant a seed in my mind.
“Courtney you don’t know the future and you have no idea the plans I have for you”.
In that moment it was almost as if a lightbulb had lit up in my mind. Even if I fell off a cliff and I was unable to talk, God could still use me if he chose too. Even if I got hit by a bus, God could still use me if he chose too. Even if I got lost in the Amazon forest and I lived in a tree for the rest of my life, God could still use me if he chose too. GOD is in control, not us.
The phrase “be the hands and feet of God” doesn’t mean to go out and do great things, it means ALLOW God to use you. Be OPEN to Gods love to work THROUGH you. I ain’t nothing without God. GOD is what makes anything great. God is the brain and we are the hands and feet doing the work for God since he isn’t here in the earthly flesh. WE are now the earthly flesh by Gods holy spirt living inside us.
So YES if I were paralyzed or anything else, God could and would still use me. God will use me in any form because I am open to him coming into my heart and taking charge.
I can’t wait to see how God continues to work inside my heart during this prep process for the race and while I’m on the race as well. God has been so present in this process so far and everyday I feel a newfound love for God and passion to continue his ministry on the missions field. In the good and bad times he is and always will be there. I LOVE GOD.
*WORLD RACE UPDATE*
It has been a little over a month and a week since I was accepted into the WR gap year program. This month and a week almost has been filled with so much love. I am almost at 1000$ thanks to some VERY gracious gifts I received at church on Sunday and throughout so many peoples gracious hearts throughout this month. I am truly blown away by how God has already started to move and provide through my friends and family. Thank you thank you thank you to EVERYONE who has donated thus far. My heart literally couldn’t express how amazing you all are and how much of a blessing your gifts are to me. I still have 14,000$ roughly to raise but with Gods grace I know I will get there. My Adopt-A-Box fundraiser will continue through this December so keep an eye out for further updates on that! I will also start sending and handing out fundraising letters very soon, and I will be starting a T-Shirt fundraiser once the Adopt-A-Box fundraiser is done at the end of December! Please prayerfully consider donating money or committing to pray for me because I will need as much as I can get of both!! I seriously love you all!!!!!! GOD BLESS :))
