Change isn’t bad. Change isnt bad. Change isn’t bad.
These are the words I have been screaming in my mind the past couple days as we have transitioned into team changes…. and boy did my team change.
I went from a power house, beautifully bold, and strong all girls team… to a power house, bold, and strong COED team.
Wow
I cried my bodyweight in tears when I found out I would not be on an all girls team anymore cause I loved being on an all girls team. I loved the community I was given, I loved the love that was shared, I loved the vulnerability that was needed to be had, I loved the sisterhood I was able to step into, I loved everything about it.
I had created friendships that became my best friends and sisters. I created friendships that grew me more than I have ever grown in my whole life. Those girls will forever be my people. Forever and always.
Going into team changes I was more upset about leaving my old team than actually being on a different team. I was sad that those friendships would be changed and would be different moving forward. I still am extremely sad. But God spoke to me yesterday through some of my teammates and I realized that even though those friendships are changing, they are still there and they won’t just disappear. What we all created is something that can never be replicated and what our new teams will create will never be replicated… and that’s beautiful.
Going from an all girls team to a Coed team is going to be so weird for me. These boys will have to become my brothers and these girls will become my sisters. I will only have 2 girls to join into sisterhood with instead of 5. I will have 3 guys to find a way to join into community with. I will have to push myself to be bolder. I will have to push myself to have my voice heard. I will have to trust these boys in a completely different way than you have to trust girls. The dynamic is going to completely changed. I’m going to have to push myself in ways I have never had to push myself before.
Hard isn’t bad and this is going to be okay.
This is going to be hard but that’s literally so okay. I can already see Jesus peeling away my view of these next few months and giving me a glimpse into the beauty he is about to give me.
I know when I leave debrief tomorrow I am going to cry my bodyweight in tears saying goodbye to my old team… it’s going to feel like the worst breakup ever… but it’s also going to be okay and they are going to thrive just as I will thrive.
God knows what he is doing and sometimes it’s hard and sometimes it’s easy to accept that.
In India I learned how to Rest before the Lord. In Nepal I learned how to Sacrifice and Surrender. In Zimbabwe I learned how to fully Surrender. In Zambia I learned how to be Transparent and Vulnerable. Now going Malawi God wants me to apply all these things I have learned into this transition.
***Prayer Requests***
– That this new team will just become a family and that we all will embrace one another
– That Ministry these next few months will be fruitful and that God will work through each one of us In different ways
– That my old teammates will just embrace their new teams and grow in beautiful ways
Thanks for reading!
