An adequate representation of the way my animated brain comprehends my relationship with The Father and my Faith is that of a TRUST FALL.
On June 23rd 2017 when I got the phone call from The World Race delivering the good news that the door had opened for this journey I was thrilled (happy dances and squeals galore). Prayers had been answered and doubts/confusion I had previously had dissipated.
At our following phone conversation my mobilizer and I discussed what was next in this journey and I was told that it would be $18,100 to go and that didn’t include things like vaccinations, medicine, gear, some plane tickets, spending money, etc. and instead of excitement I felt fear. I knew that if this truly was what God was calling me to then He would provide but I still had a huge fear about MONEY and FUNDRAISING. What terrifying words those can be.
Each day has been a trust fall with The Lord.
Are you going to catch me? Do you got this? Are you sure? Maybe I should just try on my own for a minute?
What a silly thing for me to doubt My Creator, but it happens. I would (and probably always will at times) go through this cycle of hesitation and mistrust, try to do things on my own, the burden would be way too heavy, I would breakdown and finally give it over.
Once I truly give my life and my will over to Him, He shows up, EVERY SINGLE TIME (Matthew 11:28-30).
This whole journey has been incredible and has stretched and grown me in ways I never thought possible and most importantly it’s building this beautiful trust and faith in My Father that I had yet to experience..and I haven’t even left yet! (I leave on January 12th)
There are things that have happened in my life. Hard things. Confusing things. Scary things. Some things that have happened because I put myself in situations to be hurt. Some things that are tragic, unpredictable, and heartbreaking that I was powerless over. The beautiful thing is that as time unfolds and I look back, I can see His hand in things the ENTIRE TIME.
I moved to my hometown of Winnemucca a little over a year ago. I was heart broken, lost, confused, and humbled to be living at home again. For the first time in a long time I didn’t have a plan for my life but what I did have was a new relationship with Jesus and that changed EVERYTHING.
He thankfully put D3 church in my path and used my dad of all people to take me there! He has put so many beautiful people in my life that are rooted in Him and have helped nourish my relationship with The Lord and point me to the gospel. I’ve learned what it feels like to find true friendship and people who love me enough to tell me the hard things I don’t always want to hear.
HE has provided for me spiritually, financially, emotionally, and so much more through SO many people and their willingness to say yes to furthering His kingdom. I am in awe of all of it.
He has provided the $18,100 needed to go in almost exactly 6 months ON CHRISTMAS Of all days! He has provided for the vaccinations. He has provided for the proper and dependable gear. He has provided for the malaria medicine. He has provided for the plane tickets to training camp and launch. He has provided EVERYTHING. All the things I was scared about, He did it.
If you are reading this and you were a part of this journey with me I want to thank you, thank you for saying yes. Thank you for everything you have done and partnering with me.
If you are reading this and you are contemplating doing The World Race, pray about it, get rooted in community, be in the word, let Him show you what He has for you, but say Yes to what He’s calling you to because His plan is so glorious and BEAUTIFUL (Matthew 6:19-21)!
Trust fall into His arms. He will catch Us. Over and over again. (Psalm 23 & Psalm 34)
