Absolutely in Awe
5.14.18
I’m currently on a plane that’s headed to a stop in New Delhi and then we will be on another flight shortly after to Kathmandu, Nepal.
Today I feel completely in awe. The reality of it all really is sinking in. I feel humbled. I can’t believe I’m actually here.
It’s month 5 on The World Race. We will be in Nepal today. God provided $18,100+ for me to be here with everything I need and more for the journey through so many giving and beautiful people (thank you for your support everyone!). I’m debt free. I have glasses that aren’t broken! I get to take malaria medication for the journey. God used the fundraising journey to work through the beautiful community of Winnemucca and He’s taking all of you on the journey too. He taught me raw dependence on Him. He gave me a gospel centered church to go to and get rooted in (thank you D3 Church-Brad, Chelsea, Jen, Kyle, and all of you!), He gave me an incredible mentor, a beautiful best friend, and a lovely community group. He gave me supportive and encouraging parents who loved at every turn of my life and still do. He gave me confidence to step into teaching Sunday school for D3 kids and taught me so much through them!
I have so many blessings in my life and I could talk forever about all the goodness God has done in my life and the life I was leading that He saved me from. I do not deserve this life, but because of Jesus I get this free gift. I will never be able to fathom that.
It is truly all so beautiful. Looking backwards..He saved me from a failing relationship in 2016 that failed because He wasn’t at the center of it all. It was a blessing though because it made me sprint to Jesus for the first time and He guided me back to my hometown to live with my incredible, loving, and supportive parents. He comforted me and still does from the loss of my best friend (my sweet 6 year old chocolate lab named Dude that I raised since he was 4 months old) that was shot and killed almost a year ago at the end of May. He is redeeming and restoring my relationship with my brother every day and has brought and continues to bring our family out of the darkness we all fought for most of my life. He has given us all hope and new lives.
As I keep rewinding my life in my head, I’m totally blown away by God. He knew this all along. He had a plan for me from before I even existed. All I’ve done in my past and life I used to lead, is forgiven. I am forgiven because of Jesus. He gave it all freely, for me, for US. Can you believe that? I’m not the person I used to be anymore. The old me truly died with Christ and with each step I take forward I feel lighter, freer, happier, and ALIVE.
Let’s be honest, there are moments, events, and misfortunes that happen. There are days I have to give things to Him over and over and over again.. there are challenges and hard things. It’s not all peachy keen all the time but that’s the beauty of it all too. It’s REAL and 100% worth it. The difference now is that I know with all my heart that God is good and God has my back. Even though I don’t always understand things or why they happen, I’m learning that I can trust Him because He is good and just. He’s my dad who loves me and wants more than anything for me to know that and for me to see myself how He does (He wants the same for you too). Someone get that heavenly mister a #1 Dad mug please.
I’m overwhelmed by all He has taught me so far and that this new life with Him is just beginning.
I just had to let that all out! He is SO SO SO good and every day I can see the beauty that I couldn’t before. In people, in situations, in me. Today is the best day ever, just like yesterday and I’m pretty certain tomorrow will be too. Dang, I truly hope with all my heart that everyone can know the goodness of God and can live that out because i barley have had a taste of it and it’s incredible but people won’t unless WE tell them! What else is more important?
