The Awakening. Its a weekend where squads come together on the race, each squad coming from different parts of the race, us entering month 5, one squad entering month 8 and another entering month 10.
Awakening is a time to all worship and be awakened by the spirit, to encourage and fan the flame of our faith, to teach, to learn. It’s time to rest and it’s time to dream. Night one we were told:
The Spirit is moving
Heaven coming to earth
We are victorious
Freedom is coming
Open your spirit
Be okay with mystery
Be uncomfortable
Press in
Let him come alive in your heart
Let him in
We will be the generation.
GaryBlack talked about his first experience in Thailand 25 years ago and how dark and just messed up the sex trade is. He said he got in a cab after his flight into Bangkok and they handed him a menu with different ages (8-20) and what they would do so he could “order what he wanted” he was taken to the darkest alleys and back rooms where girls were used 20+ times a day. One of his last days his host dropped him off in one of those alleys and told him to ask the Lord where to go, so he prayed and asked the Lord what he was doing with him there. The Lord didn’t answer him until he was flying back to the states. He said that “there’s little girls in the trade with keys and little girls in the states with keys who can unlock their freedom”, he said this generation is the generation he’s been waiting for and he wanted to know who has a key.
I was thinking “man what a calling” but after he got done talking a girl from another squad came up to me and said she had a word for me, she said she had a vision “when Gary said “key”, she saw a key above my head and all I need to do it jump up and get it”
It has taken me a few days to process.
This is the perfect time to start figuring out where the Lord wants to take me next
Gary said “Some of you aren’t going to go home after this”
My response was “Okay Lord, where do you want me” (then I said wait, what?)
Surrender
What are you not giving to the Lord?
For me it was Nursing. I have held onto it for so many years, it was an expectation set my those around me that I would be a nurse. I couldn’t see myself being anything else. Its was passion of mine. But the more and more I’m on the race the more and more he closed that door. Its closed for now, and I’m really at peace with it. He will open it when its time.
Success
Have you every tried viewing success outside of societies standards? Its where you find true freedom. Instead of thinking what’s societies success for me, its Lord what’s your success for me?
Its doing what makes me feel alive, in full surrender. I have the key to unlock the freedom of slaves. He said “You can do anything because I AM in you.”
This is the first time in a while where I feel fully alive.
“We bring you out of the fog of America into these countries to bring your soul alive”
The whole race I know this is where I’m supposed to be but what about after?
Will I go back home and go back to “real life”?
Will I go back overseas?
Will I move again?
These are all questions I’ve had for the past month because its the first time I’ve even thought of what it would be like to go home.
But for the first time in at peace with the mystery
I’m obedient to the grey, the unknown
I’m excited to see this life that the Lord has for me, a life I couldn’t imagine.
My next steps will be revealed in the waiting period.
Waiting periods can be dry and difficult but the rain is coming.
All my crooked paths are straightening and I will walk right into my next chapter in life.
Its so scary and exciting, the unknown, but its one of my favorite things about running after the Lord.
These past 3 days I felt like my world was crashing down but in such a freeing and good way.
So dig in friends, seek this freedom.
