Ever since I got accepted to the race, I have been dreaming and anticipating the day that I finally got to leave home. All I ever did was look ahead to what I would be doing and never focusing on what I should be doing now. I wasted several months of my life looking into the future of what my life would be like, instead of looking on the inside of how I could be improving my life and making disciples around me.
Now that I’ve been on the race for a month now, I have caught myself doing the same exact thing. While my team was in Lezhe, we were guilty of always talking about how excited we were for our next ministry and couldn’t wait to leave the farm. Again, we missed the valuable lesson of being where the Lord has put us even if it wasn’t our first option.
Here in Tirana (the land of milk and honey) I have been more than guilty of counting the days until I am safe and sound at home in my bed again. My selfish desires tell me that as soon as I get that one thing I have been dreaming about, then my life will be so much better and I will finally be happy. However, that could not be farther from the truth. Whether that be in self image, money, popularity, or anything else our flesh craves, it will never satisfy the deep desires we have.
We live in such a time where everything is instant and we get what we want exactly when we want it (even that free 2 day shipping). But it’s time that we be patient and still. Waiting for the Lord and his timing is so hard, but patience is a fruit of the Spirit right?
I am learning to slow down and not get frustrated with God when I don’t hear from him on my terms. He has never and will never forget about us. He has placed me exactly where I am supposed to be right now. I will be in many different places of the world this year, but the best place for me is to be present where my feet are now.
“Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit.” – Galatians 5:24-25
