This may sound
crazy to some and quite normal to others…but I had a vision today and I want to
share it with you! If you are ready to read a LONG blog….longer than usual…then
read on, super trooper!!!
Today (1/7) my
team and I are doing a 24-hour prayer. Lately, the Lord has been telling me to
dance…literally! So, during my alone time for 24-hour prayer from 11am-1pm, I
decided to put some socks on (so I could slide on the tile floor easier) and
dance my heart out! I shut the windows and locked the door of course!!! I know
God won’t be embarrassed by my dancing…but I am sure my friends and the little
Cambodia kids would have been!!
As I danced, I
put on some prophetic music by Alberto and Kimberly Rivera. Since, Uganda (3
months ago), I really felt like I needed to dance to that music. The songs
would stir my spirit like crazy. I listened through a series of songs:
“Captured�, “Wings�, “My Pain�, “The Flight�, “Soaring� and “Stand�. As I
listened to these songs, I danced, on the ground before the Lord and began
having a vision. The music had a huge impact on the vision…prophetic music
usually does that!! So, I will try to write out what the vision was like. I
will also include song lyrics and then describe the vision I had during those lyrics.
Keep in mind that prophetic songs usually have three characters speaking: the
person telling the vision/prophecy/Word from the Lord (in this case it’s
Kimberly Rivera), the beloved (the person receiving the word) and the lover
(God). I have tried to color coat the song so it’s a little easier to follow haha.
CAPTURED “I have
loved you with an everlasting love. And I have drawn you with my loving
kindness because you have captured my heart. I have seen you as you truly are.
And now I will show you great and mighty things to come. Come see me! See me as
I see you! Can you feel my arms around you? Can you feel my eyes? They are
looking straight at through you. Feel my passion, feel my joy over you! Oh how
I love you!�
I danced for
the Lord in my socks and encountered him. It may sound crazy but as I danced,
He was dancing with me and I was dancing before him. He was smiling at me! So
overjoyed at seeing me in my socks, dancing without a care for how goofy I
looked. The song was speaking directly to my heart.
WINGS “’Nothings going to hold me back. I’m going to fly so high’. Then I saw that
when some of you took from the Lord your new wings, you had this look on your
face, ‘these are new but I still have the memory of how it felt when I flapped
my broken wings.’ And I saw this fear in your eyes, ‘What will it feel like to
flap my new wings? Will I still have the pain? Will I still remember?’ Then I
saw the Lord look into your eyes, and they penetrated and He said, ‘The pain
shall cease. Even the memory shall be released. Even the memory of the pain I
shall take upon myself. For I will not give you a new thing that will cause you
pain. So, don’t be afraid to fly! For everything I give you is good. You will
fly in my goodness. Fly in my love. Safely under my wings. Fly in my
faithfulness, comfort and mercy. Stay close to me. Don’t ever go away.�
I laid on the
floor after flying through the air and dancing with God. The music was taking
me into a vision with the Lord and the instruments were singing peace of my
body.
MY PAIN “Jesus
I am willing to lay down my pain. Jesus I am willing to lay down my fear.
Whatever it takes! I’m laying it down so you may abide in me. I am laying down “all my pain,
shame and fears.�
This song
brought in me into a heavenly vision. I was standing in a field of daisies with
tall grass all around me up to my waist. I was about 10 or 11 years old. As the
song THE FLIGHT played an angelic instrumental piece, I saw the Lord peering
out of the trees and tall grass before me. The sun was shining directly on Him
and His face. My existence beckoned Him from the wilderness. When I saw His
face and His vibrant eyes, I was overjoyed and consumed by Him and Him alone. I
took off running toward him, my dress (yellow and white) was waving in the wind
and the lace ruffles brushed against the bright green grass. Jesus ran toward
me as I ran toward Him. His arms were held open, waiting and longing for my
embrace. I leaped into His arms, all of me, like a little girl in her daddies
lap. My arms around his neck, head between His neck and shoulder. He caught me
I full sprint and in mid air. He cushioned my leap with His gentle and strong
body. He held me in a sweet embrace. Then He sat with me on the ground and held
my head between his two hands so I could look into His eyes. I saw myself as a
young girl, maybe 8 years old. He validated me as the young girl that I was,
told me He loved and that He cherished me. He told me he’d never abandon me or
leave me orphaned, physically or spiritually. I cried, but I couldn’t take my
eyes off of Him. He kept speaking approval and love over me. “I’d never leave
you…I have never left you,� he said. “I love you exactly as you are, little
Courtney! You are precious to me and I will never leave you.� The 8 year old
Courtney that I saw, was soaking up every word Jesus was telling me. He
repeated it over and over.
Then He
picked me up off the green grass in excitement and joy. He held me with his
arms out stretched before Him, smiling bigger than I’d ever seen before. He
spun me around exuding joy. Then we laughed and ran through the fields together
in a childlike manner. Bouncing and flailing our arms…I giggled as I couldn’t
believe that it was really happening…Jesus was dancing with ME and letting me
see His joy and love for me!
SOARING…played
in the background as I continued watching the vision unfold…
Then Jesus
beckoned me further. He held my hand and asked me to take another step with
Him. So, we walked through the tall grass. I was still 8 or so. I kept peering
up at y Heavenly Daddy with rosy cheeks and a glowing smile in awe that He was
loving me in such a way. He chose me to dance and be silly with! I felt an
acceptance, deep joy and love I’d never felt before. He kept smiling down at me
with excitement and joy. The next song played as the Lord and I walked to the
next destination.
STAND “I saw the
Spirit multitude of people running for their lives. Being pursued by a vast
army…running for their lives. And I saw the Lord open the Heavens and passed
out all these staffs. He placed the staffs in the hands of the people running
for they were coming to the waters. And even after the day of Moses, I heard
the Father say, ‘Let my people go!’ And each of you held up a staff and the
waters began to part, the waters began to rise and you began to walk through it
to the other side. Running through to the other side.
I saw Jesus
walking me to the waters. He put a staff in my 8 year old hand. But, He also
pulled out more! I then looked around, my bare-feet almost thought the waters
edge, and I saw myself as a 3 year old girl in my Minnie Mouse pink bathing suit
carrying my teddy bear (My ages may be a little off but this is how I saw it).
I saw my 6 year old self in my green polka dot shirt and yellow headband (I
wore to a Father-Daughter girl scout dance). I saw my 7 year old self in my red
and black flowered dress with my vangs pulled back in pigtails. I saw my 11
year old, junior high self…a bit chubbier, short hair and khaki pants. Jesus
handed them all a staff! He smiled at us as hHe parted the water before us and
beckoned us to run to the other side…to the Promised Land. As my 8 year old
self looked behind her, away from the water, I could see all the shame,
abandonment, orphan-spirit, lonliness, fear, insecurities, sadness, feeling of
not being good enough, feelings of being dumb and unloved, that the enemy had
placed on me at 3, 6, 7, 8 and 11 years old (and the years between). It was so
dark and grey behind me. I recognized the freedom that was before me! I
realized the water could prevent the darkness from sticking to me. I could be
set free from all the enemy put on me!
STAND “Waters
began to rise and you walked through it to the other side. Running through to
the other side. And all those things that have pursued you that have not been
of Me, I am wiping them clean. I am washing them away and you shall not be
plagued by them anymore!�
My 8 year old was leading the way- 3, 6, 7, 8 and 11 year old self took off running through the
parted water. We started off walking in amazement at the high water walls
beside us. We looked back to see the darkness beginning to come after us. Then
we looked forward to see Jesus extending His hands to us from the other side of
the water, beckoning us with illuminating radiance, peace and joy. We began to
run, in a line, holding hands. My 3 year old self was dragging her teddy bear
as her little legs ran as fast as they could toward Jesus.
STAND “You are
going on! The way has been made! You shall walk through on dry land. You are
going on. You are pressing on. You shall see the promised land. Ever promise I
have made, you shall see the fruit!�
We ran
together! The Lord began closing the water behind us, drowning the enemy and
darkness behind us. He put to death all of the darkness. We came to the end and
before we stepped into the promised land, there was a waterfall between the two
walls of water. S we walked through the waterfall, I could see every last bit
of darkness being washed off of me at 11, 8, 7, 6, and 3 and every year
between. It was a complete cleanse for all the years of my life from birth
until now at 23 years old. My younger selves led the way. We stepped
into the promised land. It was vibrant, luscious and green! There were rain forests, waterfalls and ponds before me and an ocean to my left.
STAND “It’s a
new day. It’s a new land. It’s a new day. It’s a new stand! You can stand! So,
stand! No turning back!�
My girls went
to play in the promise land. Then I saw Jesus call me at 23.
STAND “The old
has gone, the new has come. There will be no wandering in the wilderness for 30
years. You’re going to walk straight into your promise. No more wandering. No
more looking to the left of the right or turning away.�
Jesus took my
hand and walked me to the ocean. He got in! He was chest deep and asked me if
I’d let myself be fully immersed. Hands open to me, He fully immersed himself
in the ocean. I could no longer see Him unless I went under water. So, I
instantly, with out reservation, dove in.We swam and danced under water as He
welcome me into His full glory, presence and love. I could see all of Him and none
of the darkness was able to get into the water. Peace, finally, complete
surrender. No control! All of Jesus and none of me. Praise God!!!!!!!!!!!!
**Thank you for
reading even though it was ridiculously long. To Him be the glory! Thank you
Holy Spirit for such an amazing interaction!**
