You know what’s hard? Not being in control.
The Lord loves to push me out of my comfort zone, that’s for sure. This month especially, I am learning to depend on the Lord in ways I haven’t had to before. Honestly, it isn’t fun or easy or enjoyable. But I will say that there is freedom in trusting God – in giving up control over things I actually have no real control over.
Finances. Gosh, that’s such a stressful topic isn’t it? Following God’s call to come on the race meant quitting my job, raising almost $17,000, and accepting that I won’t have an income for 11 months. That sounds ridiculous. But the Lord is faithful. I am currently 91% funded, which means I only have about $1,500 left to raise! #PTL However this whole not having a job thing is so, so hard. I have had a job (at least one at a time) since I was 16 years old. I have always been able to work to pay for things I needed and wanted. Now, I have my race budgeted out to the penny. And it’s hard. Traveling is so expensive and I am practically traveling non-stop. I am challenged now to stop and look to Jesus. Every time it hits me…the wave of thoughts about not having enough, there’s literally nothing I can do but look to Him. I can’t get a job to earn some extra money. My job is to serve Him daily and trust that He will take care of me, which I know He will. Right now I am reading Genesis and it’s so beautiful to see God’s steadfast love and faithfulness over and over to His children. I believe with my entire heart that I am His…His chosen daughter. So why would I even for a second believe He wouldn’t show that same steadfast love and faithfulness to me as well?
“I am with you and I will keep you wherever you go… for I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you. Genesis 28:15
