Too often I find myself caught up in my own goals.
Caught up in my own agenda.
Caught up in my own life.
There comes a point when striving to be successful in what I’m doing and working hard towards the end goal, slowly turns into wanting to do things my way. Making sure that what I want gets done and putting all other “this can wait until tomorrow” things aside.
This is all fine and dandy until I start to realize that what I’m striving after and giving all my attention to, just might not be what God’s calling me to do.
Yeah I have homework I need to get done, I have to go to practice, and I have to keep up with all the other things that are going on in my life. I knew I was going to have the responsibility to be committed to all of these things before I started them. If I want to do well in school, I have to do the homework. I made a commitment to my team and coaches to be at every practice. But when did it become more important to get these things accomplished rather than spending time in the Word and strengthening my relationship with Christ?
Honestly, I’ve been struggling with this a lot.
When did my goals for my own life become more important than what God has planned out for me?
Sure I’m taking that step of faith and trusting God with my future by going on the World Race. But what am I doing now? Before I leave?
To some, it would appear that I have my life all together. I do well enough in school for people to believe that. I do well enough in my sport for people to see that.
However, I don’t want to just do “well enough” when it comes to my relationship with Christ and those He has placed in my life. I don’t want to just get by, reaching that minimal requirement and just coasting the rest of the way.
Sadly, I catch myself doing this time after time when it comes to my relationship with my Savior. I kind of shared this in my last post, but I’ll spend time reading my bible and praying until I think it’s “good enough” and then just not put any more effort into it.
This is sickening to me.
My relationship with Christ should be my number one priority. Not some thing on my list that I can check off each day or save it for when I have more time.
I was reading in my devotional about how sometimes our lives get so cluttered that we tend to lose our focus on what really matters.
In the book, “Jesus Calling” by Sarah Young, it describes how God wants us to constantly communicate with Him. He wants to be involved in every aspect of our day and wants us to share our feelings with Him. Our goal isn’t to accomplish as much as we can and try to fix everything around us, but our goal is to communicate with God. A successful day isn’t where everything gets checked off on our to-do lists but when we spend time with God.
I’ve got a lot of clutter in my life and I’m trying to thin it out so nothing stands in the way of my time with Christ.
I keep getting caught up in what the world thinks is important and right. I get distracted and then I feel like I get pushed back when it comes to living for Christ.
I think there’s something to be said when I come to a place when I cannot even get out a decent blog because I’m so “busy.” The World Race is a something I know God wants me to do. I’ve committed to this and I don’t want to waste the time I have.
On a little side note:
I’ve realized lately how much God has blessed me with friends who are constantly challenging me to live out my faith. I don’t think they’ll ever know how much I value their friendship. It really amazes me how much they care about me and pour into my life. [Just wanted to throw that little shout out out there 😉 love you guys!]
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On the fundraising side of things:
I have been greatly blessed with many supporters and have even had two people donate whom I've never met before! This has been such confirmation that this is what God wants me to do. I still have $11,383.09 left to raise but I know God will provide. 🙂
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