About a week ago, I bought the documentary Beautiful Losers.
And while it was pretty sad at parts because you can hear the brokenness in most peoples voices, it was a phenomenal film.
Its about the take-off of the do-it-yourself art movement in the early nineties where surfers, skateboarders, graffiti artists, punk kids, and everyone in between decided to stick it to the status and do their own thing, as was reflected in their lifestyles and their art. One artist drew a piece and wrote beside it "I can't draw worth a "crap," but I don't care."
I think what I loved most was just the rawness of it. Every individual had a way that they expressed themselves and it worked for them. And as far as art went, it didn't matter whether they were "good" at drawing or painting or whatever. They just did it, and didn't give a hoot what anyone thought about it.
A lot of people thought they were just posers. But truth is, I'm proud of all of them. I think they were actually sure of who they were, and they just walked in it and didn't give two poops what anyone thought.
And so…. All this to say, watching the documentary unleashed something in me that I didn't even know was there. Halfway through watching the documentary the first night (I watched it over the course of two days), I had to hit pause, grab my note book, and just go to town. I had no idea what was going to come out. And really, I didn't even have a game plan. I just drew a bunch of stuff on a page. Here's that drawing:
And while it was pretty sad at parts because you can hear the brokenness in most peoples voices, it was a phenomenal film.
Its about the take-off of the do-it-yourself art movement in the early nineties where surfers, skateboarders, graffiti artists, punk kids, and everyone in between decided to stick it to the status and do their own thing, as was reflected in their lifestyles and their art. One artist drew a piece and wrote beside it "I can't draw worth a "crap," but I don't care."
I think what I loved most was just the rawness of it. Every individual had a way that they expressed themselves and it worked for them. And as far as art went, it didn't matter whether they were "good" at drawing or painting or whatever. They just did it, and didn't give a hoot what anyone thought about it.
A lot of people thought they were just posers. But truth is, I'm proud of all of them. I think they were actually sure of who they were, and they just walked in it and didn't give two poops what anyone thought.
And so…. All this to say, watching the documentary unleashed something in me that I didn't even know was there. Halfway through watching the documentary the first night (I watched it over the course of two days), I had to hit pause, grab my note book, and just go to town. I had no idea what was going to come out. And really, I didn't even have a game plan. I just drew a bunch of stuff on a page. Here's that drawing:
Ever since then, I have become obsessed. I just want to doodle all the time. The best part is, I'm just like the kids in the film. I can't draw-at all. But I'm at a place where I don't care. I'm realizing that it doesn't have to be some "fine arts piece," whatever that means. If you consider it art, then it's art. Plain and simple.
So I have found a new way to express myself. And it's been amazing. The Lord has been revealing things to me for my teammates, and instead of just writing them out, I draw them. I can't explain the liberation it's been bringing. There is so much freedom in the art world it's not even funny.
Another thing that I want to move into is just writing cries from the heart and then turning them into songs. I recently downloaded Amy Sollars cd "I Will Go." Its amazing!
Little back story… I don't know Amy, but I have a lot of friends that do. And I've heard a few of her podcasts before. She is a woman filled with the Spirit and is super prophetic. So, as you can imagine, her music reflects that. I really can't explain the music here… You'll just have to check it out yourself. Its basically like…. Prophetic prayers and deep heart cries in music form. It's legit.
I have always loved writing music. The Lord has been my Helper in granting me words to express myself and it's been amazing. For the most part, though, I have to sit and think about the lyrics I'm writing.
Now, obviously, there's nothing wrong with that. But after listening to Amy's cd, I just felt drawn to begin to write and not stop until I stop. I'm not thinking about what comes out, I'm just writing as it is downloaded from the Lord. I know I have a lot of growing to do, but I am excited to see where the Lord takes me in that. Here's the first one I wrote:
There's a stirring in my spirit
What is it? What is this feeling?
It groans oh it groans oh it groans oh it groans
I need more I want more
Stir Spirit stir and don't stop
Move Sprit move and don't stop
Every fiber every fiber every fiber of my being
Screams for revival
Screams for the Savior
Screams for the nations
The King will come again, He will come again, He will come again
His power is mighty
His power is great
Revival revival revival revival revival revival revival revival
I need it I want it
Spirit manifest, Spirit sing
Spirit manifest, Spirit sing
Spirit manifest, Spirit sing
Spirit manifest, Spirit sing
Pour it out God
Pour it out God
Pour it out God
Pour it out God
Revival rain fall down
Fall down on this place
Move Spirit move, sweet Spirit move.
There's a stirring in my spirit
What is it? What is this feeling?
It groans oh it groans oh it groans oh it groans
I need more I want more
Stir Spirit stir and don't stop
Move Sprit move and don't stop
Every fiber every fiber every fiber of my being
Screams for revival
Screams for the Savior
Screams for the nations
The King will come again, He will come again, He will come again
His power is mighty
His power is great
Revival revival revival revival revival revival revival revival
I need it I want it
Spirit manifest, Spirit sing
Spirit manifest, Spirit sing
Spirit manifest, Spirit sing
Spirit manifest, Spirit sing
Pour it out God
Pour it out God
Pour it out God
Pour it out God
Revival rain fall down
Fall down on this place
Move Spirit move, sweet Spirit move.
