In August, two very dear friends of mine are getting married.
From now until May 25th, I will see in my account $107.00 of the money that I make (assuming no new hours are added).
I'm so busy all the time, I rarely get to see my friends.
When I am home on the weekends, it's to play piano at my grandma's church and every so often have lunch with the fam.
I'm sure there are other things that I'm missing.
I can't even begin to explain what it feels like. Parts of me want to scream and cry.
But then there's the other part- the part that really matters. See, I could look at my current situation and say "Umm… yeah. This… sucks. Woe is me" and so on and so forth. But here's the deal.
The Lord has got me.
And He's preparing me for abandonment.
He never promised that it would be easy.
In fact He makes it pretty clear that it will be one of the hardest things ever.
But here's what I do know:
He's fighting alongside me.
Taking in my hurts.
My longing for just a little more time before the realization of what I'm leaving behind hits.
He lifts my burden.
He restores my often weary soul.
Attitude is a choice.
Defeat is what the enemy desires most.
And let me tell ya, he's trying damn hard to break me.
But guess who's trying harder to fight for my strength?
In the moments I feel faint…
He lifts my head and carries me.
Lord, be my everything.
Though now things seem impossible, still I have hope.
