Tanzania has been incredible.
We roll in to find a bunch of other girls here with us.
We’re doing life with a passport team this month.
It’s been so legit so far.
Feels like they’ve been with us the whole time.
I freaking love community.
We decided it’d be sweet to share our testimonies with each other.
My time rolled around last night.
Rewind to earlier that day…
I was a hot mess.
(Seems like a common experience. And truthfully, I’m ok with it. It actually scares me when people claim
to have it all together).
I thought I had my righteousness figured out.
I thought I was done with the sick cycle of condemnation over my life.
But when I was chillin’ in my hammock and getting it with Jesus,
all of the sudden out of nowhere I started thinking of things that I still struggle with and condemning myself for it.
That whisper that I know all too well came back once again to haunt me.
“You STILL struggle with that? If you really loved the Lord like you claim you do, you wouldn’t struggle with that sin anymore.”
Wanna know what’s even more messed up?
A lot of times, I’ll realize that I’ve slipped into condemning myself,
but then I just end up condemning myself for condemning myself!
Talk about twisted!
Ok, so back to my testimony.
Later that night after I had shared,
I started thinking about my story and realized,
“no wonder I condemn myself!”
Satan has been using the lies of words spoken over me in the past
that I wasn’t good enough or worthy enough and is re-convincing me that they’re true!
For the first time in my life,
I’m experiencing community the way Jesus intended,
a place where everyone is destroying everything I’ve ever been told about myself
and speaking crazy truth into my life.
So now that other people aren’t speaking death over me,
he’s twisting it around so that I speak death over myself!
He’s lurking around like a roaring lion trying to devour God’s children.
Homeboy was eternally condemned and cast down from heaven.
On top of that, he watches God enter into covenant with humans who don’t deserve it.
No wonder he’s pissed off!
BUT GUESS WHAT?
HE DOESN’T WIN.
GOD’S ALREADY WON.
“Their sins and lawless acts I will remember no more.”
Hebrews 10:17
It’s over.
Done.
Jesus’ final words were
“It
Is
FINISHED.”
That’s it!
There’s no question.
“God made him who had no sin to BE SIN FOR US, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.” 2 Corinthians 5:21
We have got to stop dwelling on our sin and pleading God to forgive us.
He’s already forgotten them now and forevermore by the blood of Jesus!
Just thank him for taking the punishment for you!
Not only should we not condemn ourselves,
but we have to realize that we are the righteousness of God,
not because of anything that we do,
but because God proclaims that it’s WHO WE ARE by the blood of Jesus!
COME ON!
THAT’S GOOD NEWS!
“You have been SET FREE from sin and have become SLAVES TO RIGHTEOUSNESS!!!!”
Romans 6:18
