"I saw a temple and you were standing at the top of it.
There was a massive army coming toward you
being led by a man in a cape on a horse.
But you were ready.
You had archers hanging out the window.
You knew they were coming.
And all of this takes place in Africa."
Blind prophecy for team time.
Brilliant.
This is a word I received from my teammate Sam.
I had no idea what it meant,
but Aubree thought she got the interpretation.
But instead of telling me,
she wanted me to pray about it first.
That night, I was hard core attacked in my dreams.
It was straight up demonic.
Without going into too much detail,
It was literally like a taunt-
like the enemy was holding something over my head
as if to say "I've got control over you and you can't get out."
I woke up and my whole body was in agony.
I was super pissed,
so later that day I started speaking life over myself like it was my job.
I contended against the enemy with the promises of God.
I pulled Sam aside to hash things out.
But I knew that I needed to talk to the whole team about it.
So by the grace of the Lord,
I was able to spit out my junk.
Usually i don't really care.
Im a verbal processor so I pretty much just word vomit on everyone.
But this was different.
The enemy was trying to keep my mouth shut.
To keep me carrying shame and believing lies.
But God had a different plan.
"Ok Courtney, I feel like the Lord is telling me to share this with you.
The army that was coming against you
represented that the enemy wasn't done attacking you.
The temple represents your beauty and identity in the Lord.
Knowing who you were, you were prepared and ready for him this time."
Thats the interpretation Aubree got.
Seriously?
What kind of God do we serve?
At the beginning of this month,
i was ready to throw in the towel.
i was done fighting.
i was exhausted.
But I guess that's right where the Lord wanted me.
i love that God does things that don't make any sense.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
Boom.
When I fell and told God I can't do this anymore,
there was a breaking in my spirit.
it was as if the Lord was saying "Finally."
I can't do any of this without him,
No matter how hard I try.
My whole race has been a fight,
and I've never understood until just now.
It took 8 months, but I finally get it.
He has been preparing me for such a time as this.
Every day is a battle.
Every day we have to choose in.
We have to decide whether or not Jesus is enough.
And we have to decide whether or not we trust him to fight our battles.
I WILL overcome.
I WILL stand on his promises.
I WILL suit up every day.
I WILL FIGHT.
