Soul ties.
They suck.
Period.
For starters, what exactly is a soul tie?
Well, it can happen with anyone.
It's more or less a soul connection that you
have made with someone in the past, and
one that needs to be broken off because it is
keeping you from walking forth in full freedom.
I tried to pretend for the longest time
that I didn't have one.
For me, I was terrified to break it off,
because I thought that meant that things
would never be the same with that person.
But I knew what I had to do.
I had a meeting with one of my coaches.
We talked through the jist of what's going on,
and she agreed that I definitely had a soul tie.
So she walked me though a visualization exercise.
Myself as well as the other person were in a room,
and there was a string connecting our hearts.
Jesus was standing there, and I was supposed to
picture him with a pair of scissors cutting that string.
Then I was to picture Jesus taking that person
out the door while simultaneously having his arm wrapped
around me in the room.
Hardest thing I've ever done in my life.
Hurt like hell.
I was still believing the lie that things wouldn't
be the same with this person ever again.
I mean, it's true that things were going to change,
but that only means for the better.
I guess probably the worst thing about it all
was that I didn't want to cut it off.
It was like a poison that had consumed me.
It was never meant to be there, but it had
been in my system for so long I couldn't
picture a me without it.
This only happened a couple days ago, so I'm
still processing it all.
It's confusing.
I mean, I know something happened when
I did that that I can't even begin to understand.
I know that it means restoration is to come/
has already begun.
There is no looking back.
I fully believe the tie was broken,
and that when I return home,
things will be different.
As I go forward into this new season,
the Lord will be my strength and my shield.
My teammates will lift me up when I fall.
I am never alone.
