Time to overthink.
I’ve successfully pushed my impending departure to the back burner in my mind for over a year, since I was first accepted to the world race in May of 2015.
But it’s real now. And there is no more ignoring when you’re left to your own thoughts and the Lord’s Holy Presence is bearing down on you and begging its way into you.
It’s usually pretty easy for me to procrastinate ; the added stress pushes my adrenaline level and successfully elicits a can-do, will-do attitude. But I sit at my table, staring at my half-empty, now cold cup of coffee, my Bible, my journal, a slew of lists and notes and gear – and my brain feels as scattered as the items before me.
I’m 15 days from leaving Kansas for 11 months. I can’t count how many times in the past few weeks people have asked me “are you ready ?” But I don’t think this is something anyone ever can be “ready” for – and I don’t want to set the expectation that I will do whatever I can while abroad.
It will never be what I can do, what I can accomplish, what impact I can create ; because it’s not my strength, it’s not my power. It’s not a mission trip and I’m not a world racer. I am a child of God and I am blessed to be His vessel and LOVE. That’s all.
So, while I stare at the array of clothing and gear that’s supposed to fit in a pack on my back for the next year, I breathe in – accepting but never understanding the peace of God.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:6-7
We are blessed to be a blessing.
We are freed so we may spread His message of freedom to those around us ; locally & globally.
We are made uniquely and with our own stories so we can transform the lives around us instead of conforming to the patterns of this world.
This isn’t my journey, it isn’t my story. It’s OURS – yours, mine and the Lord’s. You join by writing the first word, sharing the first smile.
My question is this : when will you step out and start living the who, the how and the why you were meant to ?
Yes, I’m terrified.
That I’ll mess up. That I’ll disappoint someone, even God. That I’ll get hurt – spiritually, mentally, emotionally, physically.
But that’s never stopped me before. Why stop now ?
God is calling and this time, I’m running faster than ever – into His will and onto His path for me. He’s waiting for you to do the same.
#praise #11n11 #welcometheseason #southamericabound
As a financial update, I am $1,000 away from my third fundraising goal due on September 30th, 2016. Never too early to start ! Share, subscribe, pray and support. Every prayer is heard and every dollar counts.
For your entertainment I’ve made a list of things I’ll miss while on the race. Enjoy, sorry about the face.
