I have to be honest with you. I have stared at this page for days, squirming and starting to sweat even at the thought of writing.
Because I’m prideful and I struggle with control.
This update is bigger. God is bigger. He is Provider. So here goes.
I need help. It’s fundraising season again and I dread it. I do not like it. I don’t like not knowing how to ask people for money and for help and I don’t like not being able to do it all by myself.
In the fretting, my doubt wraps its arms around me, turning me inside out and focusing me on me. My capacities, my connections, my worthiness. It’s madness and it is suffocating, blinding me from the beauty of the humans and the world around me.
My God is Faithful and He delivers on His Promises. He has called me abroad again – and I’m grateful. I’m so blessed to have a wholehearted desire to serve away from the comforts of home and family.
I think sometimes even I glorify missions abroad, because I see the travel and the other cultures and the new experiences. Our Lord is an adventurous one ! He is a risk-taker and a dream-maker.
But the truth of abroad missions is this : it’s hard, too. I’ve missed countless birthdays, holidays, weddings and births and deaths – and I can’t get those back. I can’t rewind and be the shoulder to cry on or the arms to hold my sisters when life smacks them into a stupor.
Yes, it is amazing to see new places. But it isn’t why I go. I go for Jesus. Because He invited me into His family and together, we have an insane story to share with the world. The Gospel changed my life and I was snatched from the very gates of Hell – if one smile, one breath, one interruption can lead to another experiencing the same freedom – there is no way I can say no.
“If you come to me but will not leave your family, you cannot be my follower. You must love me more than your father, mother, wife, children, brothers, and sisters—even more than your own life !”
Luke 14:26
So, why Spain ? Why not the United States ?
You want the real reason ? God told me.
He planted a seed in me long ago ; something that made me feel more at home abroad than I do in the US and in Kansas. The Lord gave me an ache for other people and other places. He has called me as a leader and a truth speaker in the Kingdom of God. So for me, these next steps are ordained and guided by His hand.
G42 is the program I am attending in Mijas, Spain. It is a global community rediscovering what it is to live, love and lead like Christ. The first and last three months of this program will be classroom and teaching based and the middle three months will be serving in a refugee settlement in Uganda, teaching and loving and serving in every possible way, SEEING the beautiful humans there to their core.
Am I excited it’s in Spain ? Most definitely. I lived in France during college and traveled Europe with friends. It shifted the course of my entire life. But it is not why I’m going.
I’m going for Jesus. To be a leader in this world so I can bring more family onto the next.
So I’m asking you to see my heart. My flaws and my anxieties, but also my dreams and my ambition for the Lord. I’m asking for your help to pursue God in my next season.
I need to raise $5000 by June 1st. I ask that you prayerfully consider supporting my financially, as well as spiritually in this journey.
http://generation42.org/donation-details?d=16
Every dollar helps and every prayer is heard. Spread the word to help me share the story that’s changed our lives.
Praise & blessings from the beautiful mountains of Mijas,
Corrie Jo Lundberg
