“what in the world were you thinking?”
We’ve all had that thought at some point in our lives, right? Yea, well it’s popped into my head about 1 million times the past week.
“it’s going to be too hard”
It’s all those annoying questions that generally surround a God sized dream. One of those dreams that shouldn’t happen without some sort of divine intervention.
“you’re with all new people” “what if something happens” “what about those you left behind”
And the scary thing is, there literally is no formula that made getting on the plane any easier last week.
“what if you do this wrong?”’
And yet, that’s the thing isn’t it? There is no formula. And the fact of the matter is, that this is a new adventure, and something may go wrong, things won’t go according to plan, and it will be hard. –but that’s the beauty of it.
This dream, these countries, these people, it’s a new thing God is doing and I’m a new creation.
And he didn’t make my dreams like anyone elses, nor does he compare me to anyone else, or question me. The fact of the matter is that there is no ‘right’ way to do this adventure. There’s no perfect formula to navigating the butterflies in my stomach.
There’s just God.
and when we flew over Mount Kilimanjaro,
and traveled for 5 days and like 1 million hours,
and when we played for hours with orphans with wild hair and wearing clothes months old,
and when we went around a Zambian college passed out bibles and prayed with students who came up to us and ASKED for prayer and for a bible,
and when I danced with toothless elderly women,
and when I was surrounded in laughter and realized how amazing my team is,
and when I ate a bite of the biggest mango I’ve ever seen,
and when I realized I was literally as sunburnt as I am in June in the US,
and when I awoke to the reality that Zambia looks like Jurassic Park without the dinosaurs,
and when I realized that I am only on week 1……….
I knew,
that I’m glad I DREAMED big.
So I’m going to keep dreaming with God. Big ole God sized dreams. Because despite my questions….I seem to fall more in love with an all providing creator.
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shout out to my friends and family back home. I miss you guys. And despite the fact that it took 5 travel days to get here, and its hot, and hard…you’re getting the worst of it 😉 Love you all.
