Am I really doing this?! Am I really going to leave everything for a year?! This has been on my heart and in my prayers for 2 years and now that I am in and going I am dragging my feet. I am already homesick and haven't even left yet. I am thinking what was I thinking? I am thinking why do I need to go? But my friend Michelle said, Tess, Embrace the race. God has called. I have answered. I am devoted to Him. He has my heart. It's so much easier to talk the talk then to walk the walk. But I want all those supporting me and the teens to see how rewarding obedience is. When God calls we need to answer. My comfort zone wasn't feeling so comfy. I had a passage shared with me by Mike Sontag, Hebrews 10:37-39: He who is coming will come and will not delay but my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him. But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved. So I pray that I will not shrink back as I have all these preconceived ideas of what this trip will look like. Thankfully the Euckers and Pat Embling are taking off for the year too so we can keep each other in prayer as well and look forward to a reunion next summer! I am also nervous as I have a lot of money to rasie and a knee to have surgery on July 23rd! I am trusting the Lord on all of this! I am taking off for training camp this Saturday and hopefully my questions will all be answered by then! Pray that the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard my heart from shrinking! Pray that I will not be so homesick even right now before I leave! Pray for finances and my fellow racers squad L. I am excited to meet them!
