Hey Everyone!
This past week has been a low point in my walk with the lord… In the last 7 days I have: questioned my faith on multiple acasions, pushed the people on my squad that I care for the most away from me, and I have even felt like my actions here are pointless (which is %100 Not Me! Just ask my Mom!)
But now I see why I have encountered all these obstacles….
Reason: I got COMFORTABLE…
God invited me into a relationship with him. He took my sins. He called me higher. He led me into this adventure. Through El Salvador and Malawi…Blah Blah Blah.. (sorry im just trying to skip all of the unnecessary parts) and into the Philippines!!! But then I lost sight of my true desires. I lost sight of God.
I started thinking about all the problems I am going to face when I return home!
(I left California assuming I would have a car when I returned >mine got stolen just before we left for El Salvador< so now thats been consuming my mind)
And I have ADHD so once a thought gets stuck in my head, there is No Stopping it. Not having a car led too… How will I be able to have a job if I can’t even get to it?No job means NO $….How am I going to go to College with NO $? How am I gonna get to YOUNGLIFE!?!?!?!?!?!
These thoughts Wrecked Me!
I was left with the thought that returning home was gonna be awful.
geez I just remember thinking Whats the Point of Everything…. btw I didn’t talk to anyone before this point.. I was had a stoic attitude about everything at this point..
< this is getting real philosophical, am i right 😉 >
Im sorry but I need more time to think about all of this
but here is a quick little video of last week also… but this is after i reconnected with Christ!!! Enjoy!
>End of Part 1<
