Written: 10.26.18
This past week has been really frustrating
- I’m frustrated there have been double standards
- I’m frustrated that I don’t know how I hear God’s voice
- I’m frustrated that I’m starting to feel comfortable and know I should be living a life of uncomfortability
- I’m becoming frustrated with people
- I’m frustrated that I feel objectified as soon as a step out into the street.
- I’m frustrated that some people react to certain situations differently than me that I then see has lesser than myself
- I’m frustrated that I compare myself to people all the time
- I’m frustrated that when I try to evangelize I end up getting proposed to
And I’m frustrated that I’m frustrated with all these things. I certainly don’t want to be in a negative state of mind but I’m frustrated.
This week has been hard and different has half of my team was sick for 2 ministry days. I have had a serious reality check that I should be feeling like I’m always serving through all my life just as I felt this week. I would go to ministry and serve the kids, than come home serve my sick teammates, and then serve the squad on dish duty. This isn’t bad I should always be in the mind setting of serving, I should never be comfortable.
A few of my squadmates where able to speak some serious truth into these frustrations, which in so incredibly grateful for. (You should totally go follow their blogs: Layton, Anna, and Danielle)
Sometimes I don’t want to focus on the positives and almost want to sulk in the negative frustration, but that’s not what brings glory to God, so that’s not what I should do.
Joys of this week:
- getting a weave
- Really good conversation with my Shepard!
- Amazing team bonding when we played hot seat! (Got to ask someone any question and they had to answer truthfully)
- More kids at the carepoint in the morning this week, so we had more kids to love on
- Growing relationships with people on my squad but outside of my team
- Had some really good laughs at ministry this week
- Opportunity to serve my squad and team
- Enjoying my time in the morning with Jesus
- Got WiFi
- Got to do Sunday school at a missionary church
In the end, frustrations are real and they are human to feel, but we can’t allow them to over take our world and become a victim of them. Instead, we have to bring glory to God, I mean that is why he created us! So excited to continue growing in this concept of constant service!
